if today was yesterday

if today was 5 years back,

things may have been different.

if today was 5 years ago,

perhaps it would have been a little special.

should i have known,

i would have been more appreciative.

but i guess things change,

situations change.

and it's about time for you to stop looking backwards.

but move forward.

to where the future may bring you.

like the sky and the sun.

like how the sky misses the bright sun when night comes,

couldn't wait for its appearance the next morning.

no matter how bright the moon and stars,

but still, the sky needs the sun.

for they couldn't be apart for even a day,

even if a few hours may come between them,

they still stick together.

like you and i.

the fog

the misty fog,

in the early morning,

cool and gloom,

not making way for a morning shine.

as though giving a shield to its surroundings.

the blue skies become grey,

the vision of green trees and high mountains become blurry.

as vague as how a sight could be.

as how i couldn't see through still waters.

for the view is unclear.

thus i do not know which way to go.

A heart

even if i had a sack full of paintbrushes,

i couldn't paint a smile at every nook and corner,

of my thousand steps.

there would still be a gloomy stroll.

as much as i'd like to see Happy at each seat of pupils in a class,

there will still be an empty seat.

for there could only be one.

true friends ~ the greatest treasures

some stay,

  some walkaway.

       friends are everywhere,

          but the true ones are rare.

               for staying with me throughout the years, thank you~

                  the world's greatest treasures are people like you.

crap

what is that on my face..

oh no, the 'jerawat' are comin.

crap.

love them with all your heart, as you'll never know if you may lose them tomorow

i still remember the day i wanted to get mad at him because he was distruptive in class,

but the moment he opened his mouth i changed my mind, terus tak jadi nak marah,

because his voice was just too cute, soft husky voice.

the innocent type of voice that doesn't deserve to be scolded.

instead he made me and the whole class laugh because of his just so adorable and amusing jokes.

he is the type of kid who just adds up humour to a dull class.

he can just make anyone smile and laugh.

like any other form 1 student, he's just as chirpy and likes to play around - children's nature. :)

throughout his presence, he didn't really caused me alot of problems in class,

but i guess just recently, throughout the last few months and weeks, he became more and more noticable in class, like seeking for attention.

but now he's no longer in this world.

God loves him more as he was taken away from this world.

he passed away just a night before raya, 

because of a third stage leukemia,

they just found out about the disease during the last few weeks before he passed away.

such a test to his parents and family.

it was a shocking news to me,

as he never showed any of the symptoms in class.

as his class teacher,

the news left a big mark in my heart, 

i feel his lost.

to arwah Kamarudin bin Din,

semoga Allah cucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya,

semoga keluarga Allahyarham tenang menghadapi dugaan-Nya.

and my deepest apologies for all the wrongs i may have done-any words or actions that may have hurt, :(

*never forget to love, as you will never know when you are going to lose them*

A-Fatihah buat Allahyarham Kamaruddin bin Din

harmony

the world would be a better place to live in,
if we start thinking good about other people.