shoes

we all walk in different shoes..
n the shoes we are in differ from one another..we may tink it culd be similar but perhaps it's just a matter of differentiation..
sometimes we wonder how it feels to be in another person's shoe, but in the end of the day the empathy just lies beyond wut seems to be the truth..
it could rather be difficult to venture on different shoes,
but perhaps our shoe is always our shoes, n somehow or rather it is just better to keep the shoe at its own path rather than being out of the journey or falling apart and having an exposure that's rather overt...coz in the end of the day it just paints who u are to the eyes that view..n also an awareness in avoidance of the i shouldnt havs..

~

iskao
oaksi
aiosk
kioas

...

looking back

was bloghopping and then suddenly old memories just come striking,
well i dunno..i guess sometimes the reminiscence of d past juz come hunting,
the feeling of concern, guilt, care,
some may tink u r not aware,
but somehow ur heart do have a feeling of despair,
probably it culd be a matter of just being a little too late,
or maybe just a matter of fate..

perhaps we'll never know...

another one

another one from (Lucas Scott, OTH) :


''one life comes rushing to you from out of the darkness..who will you choose to face it with..would it be someone you trust..more than why..n will their love for you help them to guide you to the light..or will they lose their way in their darkness..will they make noble choices..or will that person be someone untested, someone new..life comes rushing to you from out of the darkness..and when it does, is there someone in your life who you can count on..someone who will watch over you when you stumble and fall..and in that moment..give you the strength to face your fears alone..''

the wreckers - the good kind

no title

hope it's just d mood swing,
i just wonder y it just keeps on coming,
dis feeling of unpleasant,
as if nuting is rite and just full of hesitant,
perhaps i tink i just need a long walk,
where d mind culd just have its talk.

city of devils - yellowcard

some parts of d song:

''Flying alone I
Feel like I don't belong and I,
Can't tell right from the wrong, why,
Have I been here so long...''

''Questions I can't seem to find
To the answers I already have
And you can't see the sky here tonight
So I guess I can't make my way back ... ''

a mixture

It is rather a mixture to be receiving variety moods of news in a daY..
From the ones that make u angry, 'geram', happy, surprised, comfortable, satisfied, loved, sad, shocked, tingly, hurt, disappointed, excited, scared, regreT..
All the sorts of mixture that u culd geT..
Until in the end of the day u dunno wut to portraY..
To paint a small? or juz be still? or perhaps to have a teardrop toO?..
But wut culd be certain is the fact that the mixture which lies within is rather difficult to construE..

shattering and crushing

Roots hardly at place,
foundation hardly at base..
Then how did the flowers grow,
and still able to be going to and fro..
Having tingly needles within,
perhaps refusing to give in..
The feeling of knowing,
but not able to be doing..
Shattering and streaming down in the inside,
though the exposure is not rather wide..
The hesitancy of a halt,
but not knowing where to start..

assumptions

assumptions..
The random thoughts.,
the feeling of uncertainty,
the never-ending doubts,
the fear of calamity..
It's not a good feeling overall,
just like having a heart burn,
for no concrete reason after all,
it comes when all d thoughts churn..
When there's d least of openness,
patching up inside n creating stacks of pebble,
nevertheless its truthfulness,
lies beyond reach and ever questionable..

quote of d day

''..hav u ever had a dream that seemed so real, when u woke up u didn't know wut to believe..wut wuld u do if wut u thought was true, wasn't..n wut u thought wasn't true, was..wuld u retreat into your dreams with the hope of finding one perfect reality..sometimes life is strange in that dream..and the only way to wake up..is to face wut lies hidden in your soul..n u can only hope that in those moments of dark reflection..that you r not alone..''

[Lucas Scott, OTH]

evermore - light surrounding you

mumblings

it gets darker,
before u know it,
d coating gets a bit thicker,
until it doesnt rili feel wut's going thru it..
it's like mindless, thoughtless,
undefined..
could i still b saved..

run run run

sometimes i just feel like just running away..
is it something that could be done..
is it acceptable enough..
could i just run away with no reasons..
if only it could be done..
without involving anyting else..
only me myself and no affected spread..
just do it, n that's it..neutral..simple..
but things culdnt just seem as easy as that, culd it..
sometimes i wish i could wake up in the morning n find out that things are back to normal..
normal? is there such thing?..
or perhaps normal culd be defined as d usual2 tings that occured before..
well i guess d so called normality is far from wut the eyes culd see..
now it's been digging dis dark hole...so far deep, that i culd feel it but dunno wut actions shuld i take....

survey bosan

How late did you stay up last night and why?

+ hm..didnt realy see the time actually

Do you smoke?

+ nope

What are you wearing?

+ shirt n pants

Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?

+ i tink i do :)

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?

+ not yet

If you had a sex tape and someone offered you 3 million dollars to sell it to them would you?

+ nope

Do you think that you’re a good person?

+ nope.im a bad person

Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?

+ perhaps

Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?

+ dunno

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?

+ xingat bile

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?

+ millionaire.hahahaha ;p

Do you believe in love at first sight?

+ used to, those days

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?

+ no way ;p

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?

+ Thank God, no

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?

+ before i get in

Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?

+ yup

Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?

+ nope,im loyal .haha. ;p

Have you ever thought about your death?

+ yup

Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?

+ dun do play2 ;p

What is your favorite sport?

+ used to be threadmill.tp mmbership dh abes

Have you ever had stitches?

+ i tink so

What are you doing tomorrow?

+ lazying around perhaps

Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?

+ i tink so, dulu

What are you doing right at this moment?

+ buang masa

Have you ever been arrested?

+ nope

Do you talk in your sleep?

+ i dun tink so

Funniest thing you heard all day?

+ recalling back silly memories ;p

Does it take a lot to make you cry?

+ yes.but sometimes i culd be a bit sensitive so easily

Are you close with your mom?

+ boleh la

Name one fear you have?

+ God

Do you get along with girls?

+ depends on which girl.huhu

Who' s the last person you had a deep and meaningful conversation with?

+ dia

i tag ~ my frenz yg mengaku yg diri dia adalah saiko . ;)..hehe

ur heart n ur actions = they're not always sychronized

sometimes u just have something set in ur mind n heart...but somehow u just dun follow it...n perhaps not being able or strong enough to do it.. u juz let things be, as d flow goes..
sometimes u have a certainty, or even an answer to ur doubts n questions in ur heart..but somehow u dun act as planned..
at times u tink of sumting else, u wanna do something else, but somehow it just doesn't turn out as how it was set in ur heart n mind, but just wutever that turns out at that particular moment..
is this how things are..rarely having the heart n actions being in the same path or in one line..
those two could just be diverted into two different places..
sometimes it just slips out of control..
n perhaps not as how u want it 2 be or how u had planned it from ur heart..
d only thing that's sure is d fact dat..
only 'He' knows best n have control of everyting in this world..even d smallest heart dat's in u..be it black, or white..

4 in the morning - gwen stefani

4 In The Morning Video

humans..

humans..

they forget,
they take for granted,
they become too engaged,
they become heartless,
they get dragged away,
they wear masks,
they become selfish,
their hearts are filled with envy,
they get senseless,
they don't realize they're losing a piece of sumting,
they get on top of the world,

that's wut humans do,
walking on the spreading ground..

are we one of them...?

-_-

everytime i increase my pace of walks,
i thought it'll be a free one without doubts,
but deep down it's juz there,
moving a step forward,
but bringing some reminiscence of the past,
it juz sticks firmly like a glue in between,
not able to let go of the thoughts,
it's just there..
n perhaps will always be..

james morrison

i wonder

i juz wonder if it's so hard..
n if it juz takes all d guts..
or all d effort..
to juz let it out..
n juz release it from ur chest..
do u tink it will take u a step lower..
or will it alter ur ego..
coz i dun tink it will..
i guess it juz place u in d highest spots..
as free from lies mean sincerity..

like a flower.. like a stone

like a flower,
blossoming in the spring,
merry and full of colour,
cherishes a life..
nevertheless, hidden thorns do lie,
within a beautiful flower..

like a stone,
being thrown high up,
reaching the sky above,
away from the ground,
but as the rules of gravity applies,
it falls back on the earth,
hitting the ground,
still.. lifeless..

zig-zags

crooked path,
like a river flowing,
not in a straight line,
looking for a direction,
puzzled state of mind,
always searching,
for ray of light,
is there still time,
for recovering,
is there still room,
for realizations..