year end

one more day left, n it's d end of december..and d end of d year 2007..looking back in 2007, i kind of feel dat it's a short one...sbb rse mcm cepat je mase berlalu...short, but banyak je mende yg berlaku dlm tempoh mse yg pendek tu..smtimes time flies so fast..until we forget some of d small tings dat giv a big impact 2 our life..manusia biase la kan, kdg2 mudah je jd lupe n lalai..hmm..frankly speaking, i guess i can't rili c wut i've rili gained particulary in dis yr..myb it's juz d small tings dat we can't see wif our eyes..but juz so happen..throughout d yr i guess some perspective changes, perhaps i learn smting new every day..like wut i shuld or shuldnt do..but of course, i owiz need more time 4 improvement...i guess, even though a yr has passed, there r still some tings dat we juz cant forget about...time juz pass by, but smtimes it doesnt juz leave d memories behind...perhaps it culd juz haunt ur life..2007 yr resolution?...i guess there r some dat i still didnt fulfill..so bwk ke hadapan je la to yr 2008..huhu..overall, i hope i culd learn 2 b a btter person in d time 2 come based on all d experience dat i go thru..hopefully i culd wash away all my wrongdoings n try 2 mend it in some way..

M.A.L.U.

I rarely post an entry like dis one...but this poem i found somewhere, kind of attract my attention...it's about Malu...malu itself is a big word...when i was reading thru , i realized dat i was d one yg tbe2 rse malu coz i havent rili fulfilled wut is expected of a girl n a muslim..hmm...let's reflect 2gether...


Aduhai, setiap wanita dikurniakan ALLAH
swt dengan sifat MALU,
Kerana MALU si wanita tahu menjaga
kehormatannya,
Kerana Malu si wanita tahu menilai
batas-batas sosialnya,
Kerana MALU juga si wanita gagal
diperdayakan pujukan nafsu,

Kini si wanita itu sudah hilang
MALUnya,
Kerana hilang MALU itu terdedahlah
auratnya lantas kehormatan dirinya
tergadai,
Kerana hilang MALU itu si wanita gagal
menilai apa itu HARAM dan apa itu
HALAL,
Kerana hilang MALU itu si wanita lemas
dan hanyut dengan tipu daya nafsu,

Aduhai..setiap lelaki juga dikurniakan
oleh ALLAH swt sifat malu,
Kerana MALU, si lelaki nasihatkan diri
dan si wanita agar bersama-sama jaga
maruah diri dan MENJAGA AURAT,
Kerana MALU, si lelaki mengingatkan
diri
dan si wanita tentang batas-batas
sosial
pergaulan,
HALAL dan HARAM tu kena INGATI,
Kerana MALU itu, si lelaki menjaga dan
mendidik nafsunya,
JANGAN mengajak si wanita berbuat DOSA.
Selalu mengingatkan dengan berkata "
TAKUTLAH AKAN ALLAH"

Kina si lelaki sudah hilang MALUnya,
Kerana hilang MALU itu si lelaki
MENGAJAK si wanita BERBUAT MUNGKAR,
Kerana hilang MALU itu si lelaki lupa
tentang HUKUM ALLAH swt,
Kerana hilang MALU itu si lelaki
mungkin
hilang taraf khalifahi,

Sabda Rasulullah saw,SESUNGGUHNYA MALU
ITU ADALAH SEBAHAGIAN DARIPADA IMAN.
Wahai si wanita dan si lelaki janganlah
menzalimi diri dengan meletakkan MALU
itu bukan pada tempatnya,

MALULAH kamu pada ALLAH swt kerana
ingkar akan suruhanNY..
MALUlah kamu dengan RASULULLAH saw
kerana meninggalkan sunahnya,
MALUlah kamu kerana lupa dan malas
membaca AL-QURAN,
MALUlah kamu kerana tidak menghormati
GURU,
MALUlah kamu kerana melawan kata IBU
BAPA,
MALUlah kamu atas DOSA-DOSA kamu..!!

Maka percayalah bahawa MALU itu akan
menyelamatkan kita dari FAHSYAR dan
MUNGKAR!!!

****************************
Nabi S.A.W bersabda: "Sampaikan dariku
walau satu ayat sekalipun.."(HR
Bukhari an Tirmizi)

3 months..

3 months...may sound short but long enough to hav changes..
hmm..never know wut'll u'll get or find in this duration 0f 3 months..
new frenship bonds may b created..
foes culd b gone if there ever was one..
i guess the 3 months break im going thru is rili an unexpected one..d one i didnt c it comin..
been learning alot every single..
it's rili a duration of time dat i'll owiz treasure..
one of d tings dat rili mean a lot 2 me r d bonds dat r created..n d experience dat i go thru..
it's true when dey say dat we'll nver know wut 2 come next..life's like a game or a mystery dat shuld b solved...it's sumting dat we wont c it comin..full of surprises..
thanx 2 all d ppl dat brighten up my hols....:)..:-*

thoughts meandering around

i guess there are just some point in ur life when u juz get paranoid wif everyting around u..
wut other ppl say may rili matter,
wut other ppl tink may rili bother u,
wut ppl do may juz affect u..
hmm..
i dunno,
myb it's juz dat sometimes we try 2 hav 2 please ppl so much(which is not a necessary ting 2 do).
i guess d best ting to do is juz b true to urself, b ur only self,
the 'tink n tink' tings shuld oso b thrown away,
far far away, i guess it shuld juz fade away,i wish it culd.

n i juz hav 2 say dat life is totally full of surprises,
u'll never know wut's gonna happen next,
it is rili a world of mystery,
some tings may juz grant a smile on ur face,
while some may juz keep u hanging on a thread...

a bit about myself

Hi, my name is: norlisa abdullah

but you can call me: lisa,noli,lis

Never in my life have I: never had regrets

The one person who can drive me nuts
is: my frenz

My high school is:
in many diff places

When I’m nervous: my hand xduduk diam

The last song I listened to was: chris daughtry-over you

If I were to get married right now it
would be with: someone i dun know who

My hair is: going to need a cut soon

When I was 4: i was in lower kindergarten

Last Christmas: in aussie, at home

I should be: praying subuh jap lagi

When I look down I see: my fav pillow

The happiest recent event was:
going out wif frenz

If I were a character on ‘Friends’ :
chandler myb or monica or phoebe ;p.

I have a hard time understanding:
y i juz hav 2 tink so much

There’s these girls: who rock my hols :D

If I won an award, the first person I
would tell would be: parents myb

I want to buy: beg smlm yg xjd beli.uwaa!

Where do you plan to
visit: melbourne kot

If you spent the night at my house:
it'll b fun

The world could do better without:
greed

Most recent thing I’ve bought myself:
a bag

Most recent thing someone else bought
me: xinGt lak

My middle name is: confusion

In the morning I: im asleep

Last night I was: waTching movie wif my frenz

There’s this guy I know who:makes me wonder.

If I was an animal I’d be a: bird

A better name for me would be:
i like it dway it is

Tomorrow I am: gonna do normal routines

Tonight I am:sleep

My birthday is:few days b4 msian's independence

juz a brief summary..

it's been long since i've written in here..smting's wrong wif my laptop..xle nk bukak...myb kene anta kdai..so rite now juz hoping 4 d courtesy of other ppl utk bg pinjam laptop...hehe;p..

so...my summer hols so far...it has been quite an interesting one...spend most of my time wif sya n am..we smtimes tuka2 sleep in each other's places...one of the highlights was the hari raya haji..ain n her family was at gold coast..so only d three of us yg cook....smgt2 je nk msk..huhu...am wut lontong,i made d rendang ayam n puding jagung, sya made d kuah kacang, agar2 laici n kuih konflakes.....n ade gak nasi impit n nasi beriyani...we had fun cooking, eventhough not much of us...we later invited d others yg ada to come over n eat...overall, it was ok..:)



Few days ago we went to olympic park looking for some sales stuff promoted in the tv..huhu..then jln2 kt city..until night..i juz like like d wandering around without much tujuan ting..like no stress or fuss n all..huhu...today's christmas so most shops are closed....perhaps tomoro we plan 2 go smwhere...

i guess d summer hols here r not dat bad after all..but rite now i guess i juz hope i get a job soon..*sigh*

survey 4 d nite..

1)Whom did you last go out with?
:: amna

(2) Reach your hand out to the right.wut do u find.
:: a bottle

(3) What time did you sleep last night?
:: around 12

(4) What can you hear besides the
computer?
:: a song from my mp3

(5) Do you agree to the saying "to
Forgive is to forget"?
:: nope.forgiving is not forgetting

(6) When was the last time tears
started to roll down your cheek?
:: cant rmmber, but culd rmmber holding back tears though

(7) What/who makes you happy today?
:: hanging out wif amna at chatswood :)

(8) What makes you sad?
:: tings that culdnt be mend

(9) What are your favorite books?
:: long since i havent read a book.but will soon;p.used 2 like sophie kinsella's though

(10) What would you like to have
right at this moment which seems
totally impossible?
:: hmm.myb dat special sumting

(11) Who will you turn to if you have
a huge probLem?
:: Allah

(12) What was the best event that
happened last year?
:: smting in november

(13) Where did you go today?
:: chatswood, singgah centre n rmh senior

(14) Last thing you ate?
:: an apple

(15) Who are you with?
:: no one

(16) Have you gone to the beach
just with your buddies?
:: yup, it's nice 2 jalan2 at d beach

(17)Do you love sunsets?
:: yup, it's such a beauty

(18)When is your b-dy?
:: 26 aug

(19)Who do you wanna be with on the day
of your birthday?
:: ppl close wif me myb

(20) Have you ever felt that you've
been taken for granted?
:: yup

(21) thing/s you regret
:: hmm..rite now?..for buying smting in a diff colour tadi ;p

(22) Is there anything else you want to do besides answering this survey?
:: yes, kemas my bilik!

(23) Do you know how to play the
guitar?
:: used 2 know a lil bit when i was little, but 4gotten oredi

(24) Who's the last person you texted?
:: amna

(25) KFC or Kenny Rogers?
:: kenny rogers. tq :D

(26) Beach or CAMPING?
:: hmm..dpends on d weather

(27) Do you find yourself lonely?
:: yeah, sumtimes

(28) Is there someone you're missing
:: yes, many ppl

(29 )Do you love someone right now?
:: love is a big word.

(30) Where did you go last Friday?
:: centre wif ain

(31) Last person that on the phone
with?
:: amna

trust

hmm..is it only me, or r there some people who really seem as if they culd easily be trusted..i dunno..but recently i guess i kind of easily trust people...usually i dont...but perhaps it may b bcoz of d chemistry or juz their nice attitude...well of course we never know whether they're faking it or someting, but on the surface, they juz seem as if they r really nice n easy to get along with.. of course there r some people who we do feel uncomfy wif, n we may have a sense of prejudice towards them...but on the d other hand, there r also some ppl who makes us trust them bcoz of their easy-going manner...well, i juz hope dat i don't do the wrong thing or get myself fooled dis time around..

who we r

i guess i hav 2 say dat the more we learn, d more we become more observant..sblm ni mcm xamik kesah sgt pn..i tink smtimes im kind of observant towards d ppl around me...based on what i can see, we r a result of how we r brought up in our family..i mean, our origins n ways of life at home, n the way of socializing wif our family, makes us who we r...well there are other factors that shape who we are..but i guess our family is rather one of the factors that distinguish who we are...im juz saying this based on my observations...n from wut i can see..smtimes we may say, for e.g., 'dia ni mcm ni la, mcm tu la..'....but then later we may find out y..myb bcoz it's from the ways they r taught or treated in their family..we r all different people in this world..these differences brings d colourfulness of the world...but who m i 2 say anyway, everyone hav a rites 2 their own differences, or uniqueness..n ppl may also find me as a weird person or smting..haha...i guess d moral of d story is family determines who we r...we as 'future parents' must shape our 'future children' wisely for a better tomorrow..hahahahaha...ok, d end ;p

a speak of mind

i guess smtimes there's juz a stage in life when it feels as if u r juz confused wif everything..smtimes u may feel dat u dunno where u stand...n u dunno wut 2 do...n u dunno if u'r doing d right thing...it's sort of like d stuck- in- emotions feeling..d more u try 2 avoid situations, d more it comes to u..perhaps it's sort of d stage where u'r still finding urself...hmm...

thursday

today was quite a long day..
started d day by sending my frenz in front of d admin n waited for d airport shuttle 2 come..kind of had dat touched feeling 2 see them go away..
i guess, starting today, there'll only b a few of us left in macq coz most ppl wet 4 hols in msia..i hope i can survive dis 3 months here..huhu..i know some things may b hard..but ill juz try 2 go thru it all..

later in the day i went 2 chatswood n centre 2 drop in some resume..lookin 4 a job..huhuhu...even though i know that i'll definitely wont get some of d jobs dat i've applied 4..but i guess, it may not hurt to try..;p..searhed some thru d net as well..i guess now i know how hard it is 4 ppl 2 look 4 jobs...especially without much experiences like myself...

was kind of tired walking 2day, so i slept kind of early, but then woke up in d middle of d nite...n here i am writing my blog..;p..n myb stay up for a while..got an sms from one of my bestfrens tonite when i was also of tinking bout her 2day...hmmm..i wonder if it's juz d instincts..some ppl say dat if u'r juz tinking too much bout smone , it means dat d person is also tinking bout u or myb u've also crossed dat person's mind at d moment...smtimes i find out dat it's true coz it does happen often..do u tink so?...but i guess it culd juz b a pure coincidence..huhuhuh...

if only..

if only i was juz a bit braver,
if only i was juz a bit aware,
if only i juz had d strengths,
if only i was juz a bit stronger,
if only i had the chance,
n if only i culd turn back time,
then perhaps i could mend things or make things turn out d other way round..

but i guess these 'if' 'if' 'if' shuldnt even exist..
i often hear ppl saying dat it's not so good to say 'if only'..
perhaps things were juz meant 2 be as it is..
n i guess things shuld b accepted d way it is..as it passes by..

jamie scott & the town

was juz browsing through youtube..n suddenly i came through dis singer..jamie scott & the town..haven't rili heard bout it..i tink he's from uk..if im not mistaken..juz heard a few songs and i really like their music..myb i kind of like these type of songs..hehe

these are some of their songs..huhu


Jamie Scott & The Town - When Will I See Your Face Again



Jamie Scott & The Town - Standing In The Rain

just a short one.

hmm...
terlajak perahu bole undur, terlajak kata...xle nk wutpe dh..
i guess i juz smtimes say or do smting without tinking straight at first..
n after dat, baru nk ada second thoughts which is too late coz once said, culdnt change..
rili have 2 be wiser next time around..n dun lead myself 2 tings dat will be disappointing 4 urself n others too...sori if i i caused trouble due 2 some of my actions...

juz d thoughts culd brighten up a day..

myb some ppl juz don't realize how much they bring an impact 2 other ppl's life..
smtimes it's just their company,
smtimes it's juz d tot of their existence,
smtimes it's juz d acknowledgment from them,
or perhaps juz d few words..or even d simple hello..
these are some of d small tings that culd paint a smile on another persons face,
n culd juz affect another person's life..
some ppl juz matter a lot 2 others..
whether they know it or not..
n culd juz unconciously make another person's day..:)

a walk in d rain..;D

i guess i'll start dis post with this saying,
'always expect d unexpected'..
today one of d most sweetest ting happened to me..
d day started kind of sunny..
never tot it'd rain..didn't even thought of bringing an umbrella when i went out..
had some tings to do..so after singgah uni, i wanted 2 go 2 d centre..
n suddenly it rain..heavily lak tu..
was stranded near lincoln building..wanted to keep on walking but i thought it was no use..
at dat moment i didnt know wut 2 do..
myb juz waited for d rain 2 stop..n probably juz count d raindrops while being all alone..hahahaha..;p
then suddenly out of nowhere..came d sign of help..
i was rescued by a knight in shining armour wif an umbrella..haha ;p
at first i wanted 2 refuse when d offer of help came, but then i tot smpai bile nk dok situ..
so then there i was..sharing an umbrella with a complete stranger 2 a nearby bus station..
not juz any complete stranger, but looks like one of those chinese actors in tv..;p
dis was rili unexpected..i tot people may discriminate others for being different..
or have different cultural backgrounds..religion...or even physical appearance..
but i guess dis kind of proved me wrong...myb some ppl juz help others unconditionally..
well myb it juz happens once in a lifetime..
hahaha..
okie then, end of story :D

nothing much...

there's a light in every darkness..
there's a good in every bad...
but there could also be a bitterness hidden beneath a sweetness..
everyone hav diff hearts..unseen..
dunno wut's hidden underneath..
everyone have a good in them..
just can't judge people...
from what they are or what they do..
only 'He' is the one who knows it all n knows it best..

a jumbled up piece ;p

it's been a few days i haven't written in here...

last monday was the final exam...n yeay!..d start of holidays...
been going out alot dis week..
monday - centre
tuesday - centre
wednesday - centre
thursday - city

haha..i just like the feeling of freeness..from all d exams n stuffs...i guess everyone do enjoy it as well..huhu;p

i think i've also developed a new hobby here...having a walk...be it at evening, night, etc..
i just enjoy jln2 amek angin...hahahhhh...;p...
so if u need my company 2 breathe some fresh air out in the open, just let me know...hehehe..

hmm...end of the exams means that it's d end of d semester...Gosh, how time flies so fast...you just don't see it coming...n sumtimes it makes us think....what did i do in this whole year? what did i get from it?did i really make use of it?...sometimes it feels like as if i just arrived in sydney yesterday..tp tau2 je, dh nk setahun...n in this one year, many things have happen, consciously, or unconsciously...makes me wonder...what's gonna happen next...hmm..

i guess sometimes i get too emotional...sometimes i just do something without rili thinking bout the consequences..u know, like biarkan ur feelings control u at a certain time...n sometimes just end up with regrets...wish hadn't do dis or dat..huhu...i guess i just have to be more careful next time...n yeah, everything happens for a reason...semua yg berlaku ade hikmahnye...sometimes it culd juz be a reminder dat we've been too leka...or forgotten that Allah is always there for us to turn to..it just makes us reflect ourselves sometimes.....

mood swings..

it's just funny how a mood could just change drastically in one day..like from sad to happy..to sad again..then excited...then worried...then sad again..huhu..maybe it's just a game of emotions..it's like, when you think of something at one moment, you'll just suddenly have a happy or sad feeling..like tibe2..huhu...but i guess it doesn't really happen all the time..it just happens when it wants to..like today...and i guess today ended up kind of sadly..which was kind of weird because i just finished 'lepaking' downstairs wif my frenz, n had a good time...talking and laughing n all..but how just one single thing could just affect how i feel...especially if it involves ppl i care about..perhaps not everything turns out the way we want it 2 be...n maybe i just have 2 accept things as it comes..n yeah, changes do happen..we can't expect things b d same forever..n we can't possibly turn back time...so perhaps we should just go with flow..

Lesson of the day...

- Don't just say whatever you want for the sake of talking..coz in the end you'll just regret whatever you have said..and not everything applies the same way for everyone..

- Think before you speak..so that you would not end up feeling guilty with what you have said..maybe some of your words could unconsciously make a person feel hurt or may juz cause an unnecessary argument..

so next time be wise, and learn from your mistakes...

ok la.. i guess i should continue with the so-called ling...*sigh*....

i just don't know..

i thought that i could just forget bout everything..but maybe i was wrong..just can't get it out of my mind..sometimes i kind of feel stupid..to still be thinking bout it even though a year has past..Gosh, that's long..time flies just so fast..until sometimes we can't feel it...i thought i could live a new life free from the thoughts...but i was so wrong...the more i try to forget things, the more it kind of haunts me...it does affect me sometimes, and i just can't manage to concentrate bout other things...sometimes i guess, some feelings will never be gone...we may be hateful for a while...for some of the flaws that got us mad or disappointed..but then whooshh...we forget bout that, and we just continue on with the feeling and be back to where we were...hmm..i hope that i'll just try to forget...coz it's just way far from the truth or reality..way way far....but i just don't know how 2 stop myself..hmm..

(sori, if i may sound nonsense here...just trying to let out how i feel but in an indirect way.haha;p)

study la lisa !!!!!! ;p

1. Who sits on your table in class?
= during form 5-atun, rin, arila, wan, panda..6 desks attached..fun..huhu

2. Last text you received on your
mobile?
= some service balance from optus ;p

4. What song are you listening to?
= enrique iglisias-somebody's me

5. Who does it remind you of?
=sad2 n silly stuffs :p

6. Last movie you watched?
=death at the funeral

7 . Which of your friends lives closest
to you?
= here?all my ipba mates

8 .What CD is in your stereo?
=dun hav much CDs..slalu donload n juz stack em up in my laptop ;p

9. Do you have a job?
=nope, but looking 4 one 4 d hols soon

10 . What did you do yesterday?
=eat , watch tv , online, n normal daily routines..wut a life ;p

11. Do you wear contacts or glasses?
=both..

1 2. Last person you ditched class
with?
=over here they dun mind ditching from lecture early..hehe (xmnjwb soalan sbnrnye ;p)

15. Do you trust your friends?
= the rili true frenz..yes...i guess u guys shuld know who u r

16. Who was the last person to call
you?
=amrin, kan amrin?haha.

17. What annoys you?
= blurting tings out without considering othr ppl's feelings..

18. Would you move to another state or
country to be with the one you love?
=hm..who knows, perhaps we'll juz see cmne in d future nnt

19. Next vacation you're going on?
=i can't forsee it yet..hmm..*tinking*..

20 . Do You Play Any Instruments?
=no..used 2 learn guitar when i was young..but didnt learn much...perhaps i hav 2 learn more from aimi..hahahahhhhh ;p

21. Do you believe that everything
happen s for a reason?
=yup!certainly!

22. Do you want any piercings?
=have one on each ear, n that's juz enough

23. Can you roll your R's?
=nope, i guess not

25. Look out the window, wut do u see.
=darkness

26 . What are your nicknames?
=lisa, noli, lis, nor, kak oli ;p

27. Last time you went to town?
=on saturday

28 . Who last IMed you?
=a fren frm high skul

29. What kind of music do you
like?
= anyting dat sounds nice to me.huhu.but dunno y i prefer sad n slow songs.rancak pn ok gak

30. What was the last thing you ate?
=coklat!a lot lak tu..sinful2 chocs!!..huhu

31. Ever snuck outta the house?
=nope, where 2 go anyway..

32. Which of your friends would make
the best room mate?
=im not so sure bout dis.blom cube lom tau.huhu

33. Last thing you purchased?
= chocolate.omg!;p

34. What's your favorite beverage?
=coffee, mocha..makes my day..haha ;p

3 5. Would you stop talking to your
friend if they started hooking up with
your boy/girl friend?
=hmm..depends on d situation..i may not mind..but d tense feeling may still b there

36 . Do people ever spell your name
wrong?
=yup...usually the Nor part...smtime Nur or smtimes d Nor and Lisa r seperated..huhu

37. The last compliment you received?
=hmm.. i cant rmmber

38. Are you watching TV?..
=yeah, if there is smting good.n if im in d mood 2 watch tv

39. What are some features you find
most attractive in the opposite sex?
=hmm...myb sweetness, height, 'macho'ness n myb 'manly'ness..hehe ;p

4 0. Last time you spent the night at
some one's house?
=at amrin's..last sunday..for a deepa-raya celebration

41. When was the last time you were
extremely disappointed?
=yesterday..haha..mood swings..juz can't control it ;p

dis is wut i do 2 waste time..;p

PRESENT:
1.What song are you listening to now?
kiss-because i'm a girl..

2. Color you are wearing now?
grey n dark brown

3 . Now, who's on ur mind?
im not so sure

4. Now, what films do you like so much?
so much?
quite a few...esp d ones dat involve my emotions n make me cry..huhu

5 . Where do you feel like going now?
somewhere far far away..

6. What movie do you want to watch?
Enchanted :)

7. Now, what do you want?
want?dun ask dis ques..coz there's owiz many tings dat ppl 'want' rather than wut they rili 'need'

8. Current mood right now?
feeling so lazy to study :(

9 . When is your birthday?
26 ogos

10. Where did you buy ur bag?
bought one at rip curl

11 .Whe re did you buy ur pencil box?
at kl central..long ago..miss kl cntral..

12. How was your day today?
ok..so so

PAST :
1. First time you fell in love?
cant rmmber ..drjh 6 kot..

2 . Last movie you watched? with whom?
death at the funeral..wif am ,ida, nik,sya, izati,acad..

3. Last shirt you wore before the shirt
you're wearing now?
a light blue one

4. Last thing you held?
my toothbrush

5. Last place you've been to?
hmm..amrin's house :)

6 . Last dream ?
silly2 ones..i owiz dream about wut i was tinking too much bout dat afternoon

7 . Last call you received?
amrin :D

8. Last testi you got?
from an old skulmate in ampang

9 . Last message you got in friendster?
from lean :)

10 . last sms you got?
from ida

11 . last thing you did?
brush my teeth..huhu

12. last present u got?
a bracelet

13 . last present you gave to someone?
hmm...a lil purse

14 . last issue u read in the
newspaper?
errr...BERSIH???

15 .What do you want to say to that
special person you have now?
hav lotss of ppl who i consider special in my life...even d ones reading dis crap..juz wanna say dat i rili luv u all :)

hmm

i guess the world we live in is full of fakeness..full of masks..
never know which one is true or not..
makes us feel hesitant..

i wasnt there..

i'm just so sorry..
i wasn't there when u needed me..
i wasnt there when u need 2 hear my voice..
i wasn't there when u needed my support..
i wasn't there when u waited for me..
how i wish i was there 4 u..
as it used to be..
but i guess life owiz change..
n perhaps not everyting remains as it is..
if only i culd turn back time..
but smone once told me it's not good say 'if',
so i guess this teaches me a lesson..
to not take things easily..
n never forget what's not meant to be forgotten..
it makes me sad n feel regret 2 tink of how i was unable 2 do wut i'm supposed 2 do..
but i guess..no matter what happens...
i'm owiz here for u...
i cannot owiz be literary 'there' for u..
but i'm just here never stopping to think of u..
u mean the world to me..

no title..

I guess i rili like dis song from Evermore-Light Surrounding You...it kind of reflects wut i feel at the moment...a bit la...huhu..


"Light Surrounding You"

I see you by the water
Your toes dipped in the sand
I thought that it was over
I thought you'd understand
But the feeling is returning
Though time has made us change
And I understand if you don't
Wanna talk to me about it tonight
Tonight

'Cause I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of something new

Time was overtaking me
And I guess I was confused
They were all inviting me
But I wish I had refused
'Cause I've been there before
And I've seen it all
And I believe in you

And if you never had my heart
I would've never called you back
At the start that night
So I want you to know

That I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of something new
'Cause I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of what you're turning into

Blue-eyed sun shines on me
In the morning
Can't help but feel a little cold
Thinking of you

'Cause I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of something new
'Cause I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of what you're turning into
No, don't be afraid
Don't be afraid
Cos I see the light
Cos I see the light
Cos I see the light surrounding you

another new day..

i woke up quite early today..[well it was juz 8 smting, but still considered early 4 me] hahah ;p.
dunno y i woke up quite early..probably coz it was raining, or mayb coz i accidently slept last nite..omg!!...yeah, tertdo...was suppose to call my bro last nite at 2...but tertdo at 12...had to call at 2 coz then kt msia is 11...n he'll come back from prep..well, i guess i'll try tonite..actually im kind of worried bout him...this monday he's gonna take his spm....i hope he's gonna b calm 2 do it...im sure he needs support n words of encouragement..being on his own n all..but i hope he's grown up 2 b more independent which i'm sure he already is...even though he'll owiz b a lil kid from my eyes..;p..

well anyway, i started 2day feeling refreshed and had an early breakfast..huhu..:)..i've owiz liked 2 take breakfast..d normal bread n hot drink menu..or cereals or biscuits or fruits or anyting...

i suddenly had this sort of feeling this morning...the classes had already ended...n i feel like there's nothing else to do [not counting the exams, bile r nk ade kesedaran utk study..huhu]....it has just only been one day, but already, i've felt as if there's nothing 2 do..hmm....i wonder wut i'm gonna do 4 the remaining of the hols nnt...Gosh...i just hope that i get a job n feel occupied..tp nk cari malas..huhu...or else i'll end up juz being home..feeding myself up...which i hope i wouldn't be doing coz...already i've gained lots of kilos ever since i'm here...ish2...

hmm..ok la....i guess i'll continue next time....

my first one

A'kum..hii ppl..

This is the first time i've ever written a real blog like this.
i guess some ppl juz inspire me to write.hehe:D.
I'll try 2 be as rajin as i could 2 write in here.
myb i culd improve my writing thru here.(as if i rili write in proper sntences here.;p)

counting d days, i guess it has been approximately 11 months i've been here in australia.
2 b honest i tink i've rili learnt alot ever since i came here.
n i'm sure dat everyting happens for a reason..smtimes i regret 4 doing dis or dat..but perhaps, yeah..sume yg berlaku ade hikmahnye..
perhaps experience also help me grow..n i guess recently one of d tings i learned is dat we shuldnt make assumptions based on emotions..or tink negatively about others..smtimes we may get so pissed when tinking bout others or wut they did 2 us..but perhaps it's just my feelings..n yeah, feelings come n go...
these r d small tings that perhaps evryone knows about..but yeah, i owiz forget 2 apply in my life..or smtimes we juz get 2 emotional..

hmm...there r many other tings that i've learned..n perhaps may not b enough space 2 write..;p.

i guess i'll stop now, n continue next time...thanx 2 everyone who's reading..i'll try 2 up-to-date my life here..if i culd ..huhu..till then...