beautiful song

31 bulan 8, lima puluh tujuh

in another part of the world,

atom bombs are dropped endlessly,

to destroy a nation.

in another part of the world,

little children are dying from countless disease,

as a result of food deprivation.

they have to work at a very young age just to get something to eat.

in another part of the world,

somebody sleeps in fear,

scared of the heartless soldiers with gigantic rifles.

and here i am in a country,

where i could at least have a peaceful place to sleep, eat and live life.

we may not be the richest or the most well-known country in the globe,

but i'm grateful to be where i am today.

happy independence day.

let's appreciate the freedom that we've gained in our country.

achieved by the late warriors of Malaysia.

never would i go on the boat in the sea again

and never would i go on the boat in the sea again,

the waves eating up all it could,

heartless, having no mercy.

But i thank God,

for giving us a chance to still breathe the air of mother nature.

it just cuts deep in the heart,

when thinking of how close you could have been,

and what a great chance you are given,
despite listening to all the tragic stories. 

heartfelt appreciation is all that could be said.

thus i'll just never go on the boat in the sea again.

simple pleasures.

sitting on the bench by the big trees,

accompanied by an acquaintance or two,

just staring at the sun,

at the open space,

everywhere you glance,

there are huge green trees,

its fresh scent calms your mind,

at a far end,

there's a coconut tree,

the leaves swaying effortlessly,

from left to right.

chickens and hens scattered around you.

cats lying down having a nap.

once in while you can feel the soft breeze at the back of your neck.

making you realize,

that's just how simple life could be.

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Hanging clouds on the sky,

Heavy clouds filled with water molecules.

Ready to release the rain,

Pouring endlessly.

Like how the seasons change from summer to autumn,

Or from winter to spring,

That's just how different it could get.

It's just not similar as years before.

Like how your heart's always cherished

It's different now, today.

What's needed is a heart as strong as steel,

A feeling so numb,

And an invisible tear,

And then everything will be ok.

nevertheless

i am grateful to be able to view the world in a wider perspective;
be it in the most remote areas or the metropolitan cities,

so that i can learn, experience, and broaden my views.

i am grateful to be surrounded by people who still care,

even when i'm faraway from home and loved ones.

i am grateful that people still do accept me,

even though i may not appear to be a part of them.

each day, i listen , i view, i observe, i experience,

hopefully it could make me a better person.

we fret and complain each second,

until we don't realize the beauty that lies within.

reminiscence

when i recall,

that was the moment you stepped on that plane.

and the time that you gave me a once in a lifetime chance,

but i guess i was blinded then,

i didn't know the difference between a pearl and plastic,

but i guess now i know,

but it's a little too late to do anything now.

the clouds, the galaxies, the skies.

hanging on cloud nine,

walking on air,

dancing by the moon.

painting smiles,

wandering up in the galaxies,

seemingly perfect.

but also trying to reach the ground below,

looking for where to land.

reluctance

something always keeps holding me back.

there's always like a weight left on my foot.

i can't walk freely.

i couldn't stop thinking.

i'll hang on to your wings while i still can

not just a step, but a million steps away.

not just a stone's throw away,

but perhaps a trail of thousand pebbles afar.

maybe i could just follow the long track of birds in the sky.

or i could also hang on to their wings.

but either way it doesn't matter,

as long as it could lead my way through.

as far as it may seem,

but as close as in the heart that it may feel.

was it just a dream

i woke up that morning,

thinking was it just a dream.

a dream so sweet

and too good to be true.

it's there at a moment.

and then gone in the blink of the eye.

oh how you wish things were just so simple.

and how you wish you could just map out your plan 

and walla! it becomes a reality.

but i guess some things are vague.

roads do become bumpy.

and the only thing you can do is,

just to hope.

just face it

a lesson learnt recently.

one of the ways to overcome a fear,

is to actually face it.