the coffee mug

and maybe the glue we used before wasn't strong enough

to attach the pieces of the coffee mug back together,

it broke again over time.

and perhaps it wore out as well.

my coffee just wouldn't keep still in that broken mug,

it keeps dripping.

probably it just couldn't be used again,

and if you're not careful,

you might even end up accidently swallowing a little sharp piece of the mug as well,
while you were drinking the coffee.

coward

you're just nothing but a coward,

you're not even a fighter like in the army,

you give up like a girl.

the sinking ship

i'm upset, i'm disappointed,

that you wouldn't even save the sinking ship,

you let it dissolve into the ocean,

and hit the rock bottoms.

even after years of sails in the sea,

only now that you've lost directions of where to head,

and wanted the voyage to end,

before even reaching the shore.

and so, there the ship sinked into the ocean's depth..

one step at a time.

at late i did put some thoughts across,

and i came to figure that i may do with or without.

for i wish i'd always have this calm,

though i know that it just comes around in rare moments,

i'd wish for more often calmness like these.

for with or without,

i'd take those steps,

one at a time,

no matter how long it takes,

i'll get there someday.

how sincere are you?

if only purifying a heart was easy,

soak it in a bowl of milk, or bleach,

and white, it will be.

but it's not easy as that.

how can you make your heart fully sincere,

without any hatred, vengeance, jealousy.

purify your heart,

decorate it with the words from the Qu'ran.

start your days with SINCERITY,

nothing but just that.

leave all the hatred, vengeance, and all the destructive feelings behind,

may calmness always be with you.

star light star bright

and maybe tonight i'll count the shiny stars in the sky,

so that i may distract my mind from the thought of you,

but perhaps the sparkling stars do remind me more of you,

for you are like the bright stars that lit up the midnight blue skies.

Bora Bora, Tahiti ;)

so yeah, this, ladies and gentlemen, is my dream destination.haha. Bora Bora in Tahiti. 
i saw it in a reality show on tv, and i thought it was very beautiful, serene, inspiring, and the list goes on. 
mula r berangan nak pegi kan,
well, we can all dream, can't we? ;) 

so, anyone care to bring me there? hehe

without

it's like a winter without a snow,

or an autumn without the fallen leaves.

perhaps it's like a spring without the dazzling, beautiful flowers,

and maybe like a summer without the bright sun.

Basically it'll just be like a dark world.

no good

i wish i had my very own threadmill in this house so that i could exercise more and get rid of all the fats in my body! 

strength

i'd walk this path alone,

even if you wouldn't walk with me.

i'd cross that bridge to the other side of the road,

even if i know i'd do it on my own.

i'd wander on those streets without that glimpse of you.

perhaps a stepping ground was what i had once been,
for all we need now is a little strength.

the you that's fading

i climbed the mountains high,

i dived the ocean deep,

i soared in the sky above.

but you wouldn't even cross a rocky road.

should you have told me before,

never would i have moved a single inch.

i love love love this song :) ~

the beauty within

i was passing by a narrow road one day,

a pretty narrow two-way road,

full of greens; be it tall trees, or short bushes

some on the left side and right side of the road.

and in between some of the greens,

there were houses.

and as i was in the car, i observed God's beautiful creations,

and how life was full of simplicity, 
even when modern technologies weren't one's bestfriend.

i smiled and was impressed looking at a little boy of perhaps nine years old,

with a shovel in his hands.

spending the evening clearing his front lawn.

not doing the frequent activities which i normally see of a child-which was always glued in front of a tv watching cartoons,playing video games or what, you name it.

and teenage boys helping their mom make some delicacies by the coal lit fire near their houses,
to be sold to the markets the next day.

and some going to and fro on their bikes, 
laughter heard along the way.
not forgetting the guy selling ice-creams along the path, 
putting a smile on the children's faces,
dragging their  mom to buy them some.

just makes me realize how calm and simple life can be.

i love observing others, i learn new things each day,

if i was not where i am today, 
perhaps i wouldn't be able to learn what i did throughout.

and i'm happy and thankful to be able to view many aspects of life around the world,

observing, reflecting a thought or two,

making me become more grateful and more appreciative of the life that i have.

thank you.

spread some ray of your sunshine

i hate it when:

i don't know what to say,

or when i don't know how to respond well,

or when i just have no answers.

it just kills me sometimes.

i hate that silence i give.
i hate it when i hate me.

sometimes i just don't like the person i've become.

i admire people with positve outlooks in life.

i wish to have some spark of those features.

we don't soar with a broken wing

we need two wings to fly,

with a broken wing we die,

and fall from the sky.

nothing will awaken you, not even a cry.

bang~!

i'm sorry, but my heart's not bulletproof~

bullets do smash them~

home ~ nadia fay

i heard this song in one of the commercials on StarWorld..it's really nice:)

they always leave

i wish you didn't save me from the sea,

you should've let me drown.

i wish you didn't save me when i was lost in the woods,

you should've let me rot.

i wish you didn't stop me when i wanted to go,

you should've let me fly off in the sky.

and i wish you didn't tell me to stay,

just to know that you will leave eventually.

go..

some words are like a gun,

they shoot right into your heart.

some steps,

they're too heavy,

they put a halt.

but then again,

even trains leave you behind if it's their time to go.

i'm breaking into pieces

i'm looking for some positiveness,

somewhere,

but i just couldn't find any.

urghh..

this line from Lenka's gave me a reality check

'the writing's on the wall,

   there's nothing to say anymore..''

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Alhamdulillah, i'm still being given a chance to live in this world.

despite how ugly life could be, 
i still feel blessed to have a caring and loving support system.