why?

was i so blind.
i couldn't tell from glass and gem,.
i swam across the ocean wide.
i drowned
into the deep layers.
and when i hit rock bottoms,
only then i realized,
i lost a sparkling pearl.
up till today i keep wondering how it happened.
as regretful as how it felt.
i realize there's always a reason why.
perhaps i wouldn't have been as appreciative,
nor would i have learned.
though those days i was not as smart,
what drove me
still kept me wondering.
but i guess it's for me to reciprocate
and realize that not everything always goes as plan.
it's time for me to accept and move on.
the end.