mixed mixed

i dunno where to start,
nor do i know y am i feeling like this,
somehow i dun rili know wut im feeling,
it's all the jumbled up mixed one,
can't identify d source of it,
or rather how did it make me feel like this,
wut i know is dat d feeling's not great,
somehow i hear some raindrops pouring on the inside,
at times u do see a side of it,
or rather wut it is that keeps u going,
but perhaps it's just dat u wanna let go of a sigh,
a one which portray how u'r sad to see how it become to be,
or maybe u shuldn't feel dat way,
u shuld rather keep d strength within,
perhaps u'll find an answer some day..

mak

mothers,
they are the ones who never fail to love us,
no matter how rude or unthoughtful we culd get,
they are always there,
at times we culd b forgetful and get too engrossed in life,
sometimes we dun remember to give a simple hello,
but no matter what they are always there,
sometimes we take for granted and dun show much appreciation,
n we'll never know the tears that they hide from us,
perhaps they just keep it all to themselves,
not wanting to worry us,
they are always willing to do anyting for us,
whether we realize it or not,
all the burden we've cause, only God knows,
taking care of us ever since we entered this world,
thus,
appreciate them while we still can,
love them endlessly,
care for them while there is still a chance,
for we cannot imagine a life without them.

just be yourself

Sometimes don't you wish you were someone else..like how u sometimes didnt like the way u are and somehow you wished u were like this or like that...or perhaps u always think that other people are always way better than you...n at times you do try to impress and satisfy others..when u know that is impossible because you are just a normal human being..

Perhaps once in a while i do have those feelings, perhaps when reaching a low and negative point in life...but then i guess i realize that it's wrong to feel like that..God has created all of us differently...with our own strength and weaknesses...n perhaps we human just forget to be grateful with wut we have...and sometimes forgetting to just love ourselves and accept the way we are..

Tagged

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog

Starting time : 9.58 pm
Name : norlisa abdullah
Sisters : 2
Brothers : 1
Shoe size : 7/8
Height : 164.5 cm
Where do you live : now in aussie

Have you ever Been on a plane : yup
Swam in the ocean : yup
Fallen asleep at school : jarang
Broken someone's heart : maybe
Fell off your chair : yup

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : nope
Saved e-mails : yup
What is your room like : comfy, but right now bersepah
What's right beside you : some papers on the floor
What is the last thing you ate : some muffin

Ever had Chicken pox : yup, masa darjah 5
Sore throat : yup, banyak kali
Stitches : nope
Broken nose : nope
Do you Believe in love at first sight : big no
Like picnics : yup
Who was were the last personYou danced with : mfest people
Last made you smile : people at 193 td :D

You last yelled at : someone
Today did you Talk to someone you like : yup
Kissed anyone : nope
Get sick : yup, very
Talk to an ex : no
Miss someone : people at home

Who do you really hate: no one
Do you like your hand-writing : when it's not in a rush
Are your toe nails painted : nope
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : no one

What color shirt are you wearing now : white
Are you a friendly person : depends, usually shy ;p
Do you have any pets : nope
Do you sleep with the TV on : always ;p
What are you doing right now : duduk2 je
Can you handle the truth : i'd rather handle the truth than lies

Are you closer to your mother or father : mother kot
Do you eat healthy : i try to
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : maybe
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : close fren
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : depends
Are you confident : NO

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1) stay at my grandma's
2)studying for upsr ;p
3) wearing those very big sized nerdy eye glasses. haha ;p
4) pegi belajar mengaji kat belakang rumah nenek
5) lead one memorable year

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1) buy everything i ever dreamed of
2) travel around the world
3) give my parents a part of it
4) buy my siblings and other family stuffs that they want
5) derma to people who need it like anak yatim

5 of my bad habits
1) procrastinate
2) fickel minded
3) malas ;p
4) egocentric
5) thinking too much

5 places I am living in
1) 107 muv
2) my house kat ampang
3) rumah wan/makwe kat melaka
4) a dream ;p
5) planet earth

5 people I tag
1) Juliza
2) Amna
3) Amrien
4) Tobbie
5) Izati

a few jumbled random facts without a title ;p

i like blueberry and apple cinnamon muffins.

i like carrot cake n cheese cake.

i love Dare double espresso milk coffee.

i am broke but i believe money come n go unexpectedly. rezeki ade di mane2.

i like mocha.

i have a microteaching tomorow but im not fully prepared yet.

i am glad to have friends as crazy as i am, whom i culd relate to n whom i love wif all my heart.

i could be a bit dramatic,paranoid, too sensitive and psychotic at times.

i have a bad habit of procrastinating.

i feel fat all the time.

i easily forgive, but dun easily forget.

i like to eat pear and apple.

i am relieved and glad to do something i did not long ago.

if i had a wish, i want to be invisible.

i like trying, but i easily quit too.

i am multi-offtasking.

i tink i should continue with my work now.

ok bye.

:)

neverending journey

Life has alot to offer,
it can be as sweet as sugar,
sometimes too sweet,
causing insects to surround the scattered tiny particles,
perhaps sweetness is easily spotted by the eyes,
and we always tend to go and reach for it,
perhaps just being an ordinary human,
who prefers the more welcoming ones on the surface,
not really considering other factors.

Life could also be as beautiful as a rose,
red and bright in colour,
the beauty of mother nature,
but deep within lie some thorns on the stems,
perhaps beauty, physical appearance could be deceiving,
wut lies beneath culd never be expected..

The ocean hides a thousand meaning,
it could be a friend at one time and an enemy in the other,
u may happily swim near the shore with laughter and smiles on ur faces,
having a company and cherishes ur day,
but be careful, dun get swept away by the unwelcoming waves,
it may drown you away in an ocean of mystery,
perhaps that's also how life could be,
at first you become happy and enjoy things,
sometimes perhaps over-enjoyment,
thus at times u just get carried away along with the stream of unconsciousness.

Don't be like a feather,
being as light and weightless,
easily blown away by the wind,
faraway up above the sky,
having ur feets nowhere near the solid ground.

Perhaps you should be like the huge trees,
having it roots tied up at its base,
thus rarely being able to be swept away entirely by the wind,
always determine with its stands,
and not easily to be shaken.

Life itself is a trial, a test,
sometimes u just start to learn and have d knowledge of perhaps d simplest tings,
perhaps at times u learn to realize what is it that u are looking for,
and also searching for,
only then u can differentiate between the needs and the wants.
and wut is it to hold on and leave behind or make amends to..
only after u give a slap on ur face is d time when u come back to reality.

the perisher - sway

sometimes

Sometimes they think that you're just stupid,
Perhaps figuring that you are just easily deceived,
Somehow they may think that you believe and accept every word that's uttered,
but perhaps they don't know..
That u also have an opinion that's kept,
And an own belief that rather opposes,
Perhaps u prefer that some things are better left unsaid,
U also refuse to care anymore as much,
Thinking that everyone's space is at their on interest,
Thus staying out with your sealed opinion is wut u shuld do.

pieces

perhaps it did take quite a few months to actually realize n berpijak di bumi yang nyata.maybe it was rather vague before.the point was there, but perhaps it was a bit unclear.perhaps after a few words,a few sessions,a few understandings, then i guess it just struck the mind.perhaps before this it was just heard from far, those remarks which sumtimes we just refuse to take note.perhaps it's true they say, the tree won't sway without the wind.haha.that was a direct translation.;p.not a matter of assumption though.perhaps random pieces of jigsaw puzzles just don't fit into any random places, they need to follow the appropriate shape and orientation.

nope

nope, i refuse to.not anymore.i dun regret. infact, i think i feel better now. :). it's just dat when u just stack up ur mind 2 tink all d time, so when u let it rest for a while, then the feeling's great. perhaps now i shuldn't care or mention as much now. i guess i've said wut i've said before, perhaps sumtimes too often n too much, so now, wutever that comes next is not in my hands and also not my business.sumtimes it's as if a bit of a weight has gone off my shoulders.i guess im just glad.:)

hello :D

haha. to those who read my post two days ago bout, just ignore it k..hehe..thanx for the comments anyway ;)..i suddenly had d urge to write again in here tonite..sori for being fickle minded...too tempting perhaps.;p.

many things in my mind, but perhaps took me long to actually write..depends on my mood perhaps..

it's been two days of fasting..btw, selamat berpuasa to all Muslims...sori for all my wrongdoings k?:)..myb this year it feels a bit different..i guess i will try to make the best of it more than i did before, perhaps being faraway from home, makes me learn more...back home i will just perhaps stick to the norms and dont rili see it in depths..perhaps it culd b a bit of an eye opener now..

people say if u dun go thru tings, then u'll never learn..i guess that's true..the more experience go thru n the more mistakes u make, the more u learn..somtimes it just makes u realize wut is it u lack of, or wut is it that u'r searching for..sumtimes u know wut u want. but perhaps not strong enough to actually do it or rili face it yet..perhaps it's just a phase in life..having a stage where it's perhaps rather a zig zag path...not flowing rather smoothly...

sometimes u dun realize ur actions do affect others, giving a big impact on them..when u tink it's just nuting...perhaps u hav to be more aware in times to come...u just have to be strong, n just hold on to wut u believe in..dun do tings which will just damage other people's feelings as well..u hav to realize where u stand..n leave some tings behind...dun make it a main focus in ur mind..learn to let tings be n to let go...n sometimes u just get so ignorant , until u forget the world around u, bout wut's happening.. perhaps smtimes u just mind ur own business, until u dun realize that it's better to lend a helping hand once in a while...perhaps mixing around with people makes u more aware of the surrounding world around u...n perhaps sincerity is also important, it's not to be questioned...smtimes some may not see or perceive it the way it is, but u shuld know wut u'r doing..

being 22 last week, i hope to become a a better person in many aspects..being a normal human being, full of mistakes n mishaps..perhaps culd always learn, even in the smallest events in life..rather leaving out the unnecessary n holding on to wut's worth...

till then...enough of babbling for the day..gudnite :)