everlasting.

The roses blooming in the meadows,
Sparkling rays of sunlight,
The cooling breeze,
Or just that smile on those children's faces,
The beautiful wonders on the earth,
Will always be there.

*glass shattering*

it breaks like a glass,
creates a silence,
you can even hear a needle that drops on the floor.
it crushes in the silence,
it shuts down in the chaos.
it does not heal.
the newly painted vibrant wall,
just washed away by the rain.

circles of life.

you don't know what you have, until you lose it.
you lose it, it's gone.
only then you discovered,
it was a treasure.
but things like this happen for you to learn,
understand,
appreciate,
and to grow.
looking back at those glorious days,
beautiful words,
wonderful moments,
could kill you inside.
how could i have been so blind.
but now,
it's time to let it all go,
seal it all behind,
and move on,
start over,
with an open heart.

20.12.2012

I don't want to be like this anymore,
I want to change
for the better.
May Allah guide my way through.

of words and weapons.

I'm not in a position to say,
Nor do I have the rights to convey.
Though it once may have portrayed,
Those visions are kempt but never to be sustained.
But let the wind with the faded hue,
Send those words right to you.

love this song :)

a song to sum up the year 2012 perhaps ;)



"gravity hurts, you made it so sweet"

jigsaw puzzle.

You have a piece of my heart,
Could you kindly please give it back to me?
'Cause I just couldn't live without..
 :(

gem

the shielding blanket of dark skies,
decorated with glittery yellow stars.
a star that you want to reach,
as it mesmerizes the witnessing eyes.
though how you climb up the open air,
you'll never even have its grasp.
thus let it sparkle its glow at the deep blue seas,
for it'll never shine at you,
ever...
so don't go chasing for the stars.

:')

smiles, keep on smiling. :)

smiles, as bright as the sun,
as soothing as the cooling breeze,
as serene as the wide blue oceans,
as sincere as the pure white doves,
as calming as a smooth melody,
as beautiful as the rainbow,
as meaningful as a heartbeat,
~that smile of yours ;).

the moon.

it's not like a sketch on a piece of paper,
that could just easily be erased,
nor is it like a paint stain on the window,
that could vanish by a bucket of water.
but,

it~
it couldn't be easily wiped off,
nor removed,
it...
it just basically,
stays there.

hehe! enjoy! :)

Blame "Adam dan Hawa" for making me like this song : (haha!)

 And this one: (such a beautiful song! :') )

And this one too! : (this one i've already heard earlier before)  

hihihi...saje! ;p

feeling a bit reflective..:p

''I'm not a perfect person
There are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning..''     ~ <the reason - hoobastank>

for all the wrong things that i've ever done all this while, i know i've done a lot of mistakes before, some i don't even want to think of anymore. but, i repent with all my heart and i don't want to repeat them again..i want to change to become a better person..may Allah ease my way through..

hello, december.

continue on smiling and spreading positive vibes,
who knows it might just brighten someone's day.
you just don't know how a simple act of kindness could cheer someone up.
even a person you never even met before,
someone alien to you ; a stranger. :)

halt.

burns into ashes,
candle wax, vanishes.
streets, empty.
stars in the sky, losing touch.
these roads are getting older.
bother no more,
give not, another care.
held high,
those picket fences.
walk a rythym,
don't follow those steps,
not anymore.

:)

i stumbled upon this song tonight while browsing around..love it! :)
 

beautiful.

  Sunset.

~Breathtaking,
  The sky painted with palettes of serenity.
  With a hint of an orange-yellowish hue.
   A remarkable view.
  The sun slowly hiding away
  Comes the fluffy, velvety white clouds,
  Feels as though just within a reach.
  The sight so wonderful,
  Takes you to a different world.
   Magnificent, mesmerizing,
   As beautiful as you.

   I miss the old you.

of seashells and clear white sands~we'll get by

Too much of a time we take searching for seashells

On the clear white sands..

Collecting those beautiful creations.

At times we dig down deep

To find that seashell.

Too precious to just let it slide by the sea.

But sometimes we too, get tired.

And we'd just let the ocean waves brush those seashells towards us,

Let it just come swooshing by..

For we need not look for the seashells by the

Seaside.

those words

Oh dear heart, why do you get so weak?

You could do better than this.

It's just a droplet of rain out of the raging storm that you've ever faced before.

You could get through this.

the ruthless pearl

A life ruined,
Because of a shiny pearl.
The shine so glaring,
It hits you deep.
When the pearl has vanished,
Comes the empty shells.
Diamonds long gone,
In the depths of the sea.
Swim to the middle of the ocean,
But still wouldn't get you there.
 Thus let it shine its own lights,
In its own world.
Deep it buries,
 In the hearts of the ocean.

open your heart

It's a wide world out there.
Chances to grasp,
Obstacles to overcome.
Endless opportunities,
A world with no boundaries.
So why limit yourself?

bon voyage.

Love - it's hard to define.

Why I love you so much ~

It's not comprehensible.

It may be the care that's as much as the raindrops from the sky,

Or simply just the comfort of the heart,

But either way , 

I'd have to let it go,

And let it sail in the seven seas.

gold.

Wrong turn,
start it over.
Wrong words,
talk it over.
Wrong twist,
slide it over.
Regrets,
toss it over.
For we've got nothing to lose.
Time's too precious to waste.
Leave it behind and;
seal it all away.

soar.

floating in the air,
those feathered dusts.
lightweight, dangling, but;
eventually landing on the solid ground.
rising up once fallen.
picking up the bits and pieces,
being whole again,
and soaring up to the milky way.

"i will make sure, to keep my distance"

the yacht

and as i sail the seven seas,
the breeze so cool,
it tingles on my skin.
I'd let the ocean waves sail me through,
And bring it where it would,
Because I want to be free,
I want to start fresh,
Away from what that have ever been.
I want to soar,
Away.

my path, it blocked

No matter what,
I'd still walk a thousand miles,
Climb up the mountains high,
Dive in the seven seas,
And soar the skies above.
I thought i'd stop, but i couldn't.

lost in translation

In a loud room,
I still feel the silence.
In a world of chaos,
I still feel alone.
In between smiles and laughters,
There's still a distant look in the eyes.
As wide as the spaces in this empty room,
That's how big the holes are in the hearts.

ashes and dusts

trace the trail of the winds,
you may just follow it wherever it goes.
or chase a hint of the smokes in the air,
the path it goes may just lead your way.
but as time passes by,
it just turns into ashes,
and would you just live your life collecting dusts?

26

It's the 26th and I'm 26 today. :)

colours

Colours
They beautify your world.
The glitter they bring,
The puzzles they create.
Depending on what colour portrayed,
It emotes different feelings and mood.
You're like a colour to me,
Every colour all at once.
You're a beautiful person.
You're different, you're special.

it's the shine

Sometimes the sun doesn't always shine our way,
Nor does the rainbow always comes to sight.
At times, the rain falls too heavily,
It drowns us in.
So all we could do is swim our way out,
And weather the hurricanes or storm.
'Cause sometimes we're in it alone.

sketched on a polaroid

I'm tired of running,
Because my feet can't take me anywhere further.

I'm tired of crawling,
Because my knees, they hurt.

I'm tired of swimming,
I just keep on drowning.

I'm tired of flying,
I need to get my feet back on the ground.

I'm tired of waltzing,
I don't seem to move by the beat.

I just want to stand still,
Move nowhere,
And just be nowhere else,
But here.
And not there,
Definitely.

the final straw

the final straw,
the final straw that broke the camel's back.
the final straw that,
either made you move forward,
or stop.
that one last thing that was the turning point.
that made your visions change.

no light.

Often we walk for miles,

We keep walking wherever our feet would bring us,

But we wouldn't know where to stop.

Thus we keep the walk,

As far as it goes,

Until we see no more light in the sky.

beautiful things.

Someone to tell you that it's okay,
No matter how crappy things get.
Someone to make you smile,
On your gloomy days.
Someone to give you a grip,
When you fall.
A shoulder to cry on,
The sunshine ; a rainbow.
Wouldn't it be loverly?

eternal love

who would ever love me as much,
care for me as much,
and sacrifice for me as much,
like my mum and dad.
brings me to tears to think of all the things that they've done for me,
without ever asking for anything in return
just wanting nothing but the best for me.
no words could ever describe how grateful i am to have them.

for all the wrong that i've ever done.
deepest apology from the bottom of my heart,
mum and dad.
may Allah bless you always..

thank you.

much love,
n.

where do we go from here?

Where do we go from here?
When all the sunshine has lost its rays

Where do we go from here?
When all the rainbow has lost its vibrant colours

Where do we go from here?
When the birds refuse to fly south

Where do we go from here?
When we go afar,
But it just leads us to,
Nowhere...

Where do we go from here?

dead-end.

doors, sealed with silver locks.
routes, blocked with amber signs.
paths, zig-zagged amidst the valleys and hills.
journey, stopped within a halt.
where else would you go?
home, just drive me there.

words

have you ever thought how sometimes our lives are just affected by words?
how wrong words being uttered could ruin something, somewhat beautiful?
and how series of words could twist everything within seconds.
things could just get abruptly ugly,
just because of those set of words.
overnight, things could just change,
just like that.
and how sweet little things could just be forgotten
it's like entering a whole new world.
as if no good words were ever spoken.
like nothing beautiful ever happened.
just because of that single paragraph,
a line,
an utterance,
or even
 just a word.

The Painting.

The drawing that you painted
yourself.
The fantasy you created,
The dream you visioned.
On trees,
the beautiful pink bark,
the glittering , mesmerizing leaves,
the rainbows that grow from those trees.
And the ripe fruits that are produced every second,
Creating the most beautiful scent,
and an exquisite taste.
Nothing could ever go wrong,
In those images you sketched,
in that painting.
A crushed dream covered beneath those pallettes of paint.
A picture perfect moment.

feeling Sheila on 7 di malam hari..haha ;p

enjoy!! :)



''Masih saja ku teringat ,
kata iringi kau pergi,
Jadikan sore itu satu janji ,
Kau akan setia untukku,
Kembali untuk diriku
Mengingatku walau aku jauh
Akupun sempat janjikan,
Kukayuh semua mimpiku
Kulabuh tepat di kotamu…
Dan kaupun selalu janjikan,
 Kau akan menungguku datang
Bersatu kembali seperti dulu
Dan bila akupun rindu pada nyamannya kucupmu
Pada indahnya tawamu
Kudendangkan dengan gitar
Lagu-lagu kesayangan
Sambil kuingat indah wajahmu

Oo… oo… Tunggulah aku di Jakartamu
Tempat labuhan semua mimpiku
Tunggulah aku di kota itu
Tempat labuhan semua mimpiku ''

walkaway.

walk a little further,
soar a bit higher,
swim a a little deeper,
'cause I'd rather be anywhere,
but here.

a glimpse of the star.

walking the miles,
the distance may take a lifetime,
but nevertheless,
you could still have a scent of the serene breeze,
as you waltz.
and the dark skies,
though the sight afar,
but still you could have a glimpse of the stars
even if for a while.
it could give a warmth at heart,
though just for a moment.

lovely..:)

weathered dusts

wipe off those weathered dusts,
sheild that tiny ray of sunlight,
dry off that drop of dew,
rub away that last spot of stain.
live no more in disdain.
be free of those remnants.
start a new day.
today.
no more time to waste.

take my breath away..

Quinn :) and Santana..

why?

was i so blind.
i couldn't tell from glass and gem,.
i swam across the ocean wide.
i drowned
into the deep layers.
and when i hit rock bottoms,
only then i realized,
i lost a sparkling pearl.
up till today i keep wondering how it happened.
as regretful as how it felt.
i realize there's always a reason why.
perhaps i wouldn't have been as appreciative,
nor would i have learned.
though those days i was not as smart,
what drove me
still kept me wondering.
but i guess it's for me to reciprocate
and realize that not everything always goes as plan.
it's time for me to accept and move on.
the end.

stay

in the world that i see,
in the step that i take,
in the breath that i inhale,
in the scent that i smell.
in each blink of the eye,
in each corner of the mind,
i could not erase.

the nothingness

not even a piece of the moon,
a spark of the stars,
or even a drop of the ocean.
not a sand on the beach,
nor even a wisp of the breeze.
just nothing at all.
that's what you are.

we'd know

and maybe we stumbled and fall,
so we rise again and stand tall.
we turned the wrong way,
we sway.
and then we stop,
start again.
we don't need the weather forecast
to tell us that the the sun will come
or that the thunderstorm will rage
we'd know.

glittery dusts.

those pebbles left behind,
leaving trails as it walks.
footprints on the sand,
they still stay when they go.
though it doesn't soak you deep,
but the ocean still lingers at your feet.
they'd still follow as you move.
so how far could you go.

i miss you.

Count the zillion of stars in the sky,
But it wouldn't be as much.
Or how about the raindrops that fall from the sky?
Still, it wouldn't portray as much.
Even each of the particle of sands by the beach
Wouldn't be enough to explain how much,
That I miss you.
I miss you more than that.
More than words can ever say.

a heartbeat.

ocean breeze tingles beneath my ears,
brings chills at the back of my neck.
my heart says yes,
my mind says no.
i'm too scared to do anything.
be careful what you wish for ; they say.
so i'll just let it pass,
for now.

colours.

We paint too much a memory,
The colours so deep,
It were meant to last.
Blazing red,
You could feel the fire.
White as snow,
The purity that's felt.
As black as coal,
The darkness that's kempt.
Crystal clear as the water,
You could nearly feel it running.
The paint we used,
It was waterproof.
Forever, it stayed,
Lasts for a lifetime.

The Walk at the Prairie.

As we walk down the prairie,
Its yellowish green grass, a spark of serenity.
The crisp of the summer's breeze,
Caught us; we got lost in the moment.
The cows; its tails swaying.
The birds; arise above the meadows, the brownish hills.
A land that we are yet to venture,
These paths that lead to nowhere,
A step that was never there.
It left us behind.

that sun

Learn that the bright sun will keep on shining,
Though sometimes it just projects a faint light,
Beneath a tiny crack of the door.
Learn that that spark of sun,
Will light up their worlds,
In every nook and corner.
Though you can't help but feel the warmth at times,
Remember that it doesn't only shine at you,
But also everything else in this world.

that nature

It's ok if the snow's white,
And if the grass is green.
It's ok if the ocean's blue,
And if the sun is yellow.
'Cause that's how the course of nature works.
You can't change what already is.
Let it be how it were meant to be.

the shine

Light off the stars,
If the shine's quite too bright.
Colour 'em white,
If the rainbow's too much a colour.
Scoop some pails away,
If the sea seems too deep.
And just let the rain fall,
If it'll water the debris away.

Nescafe.

So the Nescafe page in FB told people to write poems on Nescafe or peanut butter, as it was poetry month this month. So this is what I wrote: (writing in times when the heart's not feeling so good, so this is what it turned out to be) Enjoy!:D

My Comfort

Oh, when the world's not quite fair,
And when the heart's always in despair.
Or when the days go blue,
As when life's been cruel to you.
You could never go wrong with a mug of Nescafe,
It would always make your day
Even in times when the skies turn gray.

faded prints

I walked by the sandy white beaches,
We used to keep those tracks that they left behind,
Those footprints..
Came rain or shine,
Those footprints, they were there to guide us through.
Printed on the sandy white beaches.
But as seasons past,
They become faded prints..
And then later,
They'd be gone..

that grip

Climbing up the mountains high,
That rope that held our grips tight.
All red and sore, our hands turned
We lose that grip
And we fell
Down and deep
Bumped our heads to the solid grounds.
And it hit us deep.

the garden that you planted

the flowers, gone dry.
grass, turns yellow.
the earth, a rough surface.

water it with sunshine,
shine it with the rain.

it's losing its grace,
the garden that you planted~

wake up again,
open your eyes,
and wash it all away.

one millisecond

Amazing how there's this power you have,
To either lift my spirit up,
Or bring it down
In one single second.
Just like that.
Amazing,
This person you are.

that sparkling glow

I threw that sparkling pearl into the deep blue ocean,
As I couldn't live without it,
I dived back into the sea,
In search of it.
I looked and searched,
Looked and searched,
But no sign of it.
It was..gone.
And thus I lost that glow in me, the smiles..
And my days, they turned blue,
As blue as the oceans, the seas.

let it go

The reason why
is 'cause you'd want to reach the mountain peaks,
whilst the journey itself puts you to a halt.
The reason why
is 'cause you witness the beauty of the coral reefs in the deep blue sea,
and thus there you'd want to dance freely like the jellyfish
whilst an oxygen tank is what you have to carry along.

Thus dream, the dreams within reach,
Walk your own path, your own road,
Don't glance too much on the doors of others.
Just be you.

feather.

We grasp a floating feather,
The grip too long,
Flowing us to where it goes.
As light as the feather, it be,
Aimlessly heading elsewhere.
And thus we put our hands in the air,
Losing touch of the lightweight feather.
And let us fall to the solid ground.

remnants

Let's just sketch the stars in the sky,
Though it may not last - as when the sun will appear in the morning, the stars, they'd fly.
But at least we'd know that it did paint a smile,
Even if for a while.

the droplet

The droplet of rain,
That you were.
Then fell into the ocean blue,
Thus getting lost in the sea,
Unseen, never again be found.
A part of the ocean,
You became.
Nothing significant,
Just like any one of those other droplets in the sea.

This one is my little brother's writing :)

‘’Sorry’’

If my time will end today,
Would I be ready to go?
Leave all the things I’ve worked so hard for,
Everything and everyone I’ve known,

I live my life in the fast lane,
I only live for today,
Never thought about anyone else,
It was just about me, myself and I,

Never ever I have stopped,
For a moment to think,
Of what’s staring at me,
I’ve been breaking all the mirrors of reality,

I’m so sorry,
If only I had just one last chance,
I’m so sorry,
But now it’s too late to change the past,

I beg you all,
For all your miseries,

Please forgive me…

I miss you..very much :(

i'm still learning

I'm still learning to waltz forward,
Without having a glimpse of the behind.
I'm still learning to be a good teacher,
And pull it all together.
I'm still learning to be a patient person,
And don't let myself be carried away by emotions.
I'm still learning to breathe easy,
Without thinking much about things that stress myself.
And I'm still learning to forget about you,
To start a new day without a single thought of you.

done.

Eyes shut,
But not too blind to see.
Lips sealed,
But enough to say.
Ears couldn't hear the words uttered,
But the heart's enough to feel.

change.

The moon, it starts to dissolve,
As dawn arises..
It's fading out of sight..
Away it disappears,
As courses of nature..
It fades into the space..
Clearing away the dark sky..
Slowly the sky brightens..
And as dawn, it passes..
Fluorescent be the sky
As blue as the sea underneath the sunshine.

rainbows.

I'd rather weather the lightnings in the skies,
Rather than sliding on the rainbows that may not even be there.
Though its beauty mesmerizes,
No certainty that it'll be there.
Sometimes it's too afraid to appear.
Thus giving you just an empty sky.
We'd rather choose that rain that we see,
Rather than that rainbow that may just give a momentary sparkle,
And later, it'd be gone.

:D

i just had to share this in my blog. you'd pretty much know why. :D

1.2.12

A new month, a fresh start.
Forget yesterdays.
Just move on. :)

they talk.

That's just how people are,
When you're on top of the world,
They talk.
When you hit rock bottoms,
They still talk.
They never stop talking,
or make an issue about you.
And most of all,
They love to see you fall.
You can just never let them stop talking.
So just let them be.
Live your life the way you want.
Remember that you always have God.

the weather forecast.

Sunshine on the window,
They'd be gone.

Rainbows in the sky,
They'd fade.

We need not wait for the weather forecast,tomorrow.
We know that the sky'd get dark.

And the stars,
They'd vanish.

no where land~

We travel around the world,
We walk in each corner of the globe.
We fly high up in the air, thousands of feet above the ground.
We dive in the depths of the ocean.
We lie down in the stream of meadows, having those colourful tulips and sunflowers surrounding us,
Brightening our paths~ what ever that could go wrong?
But as we start opening our eyes, our minds
And we start thinking about it again,
We just get back to that very start.
As if no miles were ever ventured.

the faint light

in each closed door,
there's a little crack,
projecting a faint light,
of the other side.
in which you peek into every now and then.
you try hard not to.
but you could not help yourself from doing so.
thus you know that you haven't really done a good job.
but fret not,
because you know that you've been trying your best.
And even if it takes only a second per hour,
at least you are still,
moving.

maybe

And maybe we did say a few things that we did not mean to say,
And maybe we fall so that we could wipe off the dirt,
and stand up again.
And maybe we make mistakes so that we could learn from them.
And maybe we couldn't soar up in the galaxies and milky ways,
so that we could keep our feet on the ground.
Just maybe.

stars

I spent too many nights counting the stars in sky,
Until I realize that I have to stop.

only God knows best :)

Who knew that one day I'd be a language person.
All my life I thought I'd be a science person.
But in the end, this is the field that I am involved it.
And no doubt I realize that I have a passion towards it.
I am also responsible to spread that passion towards the students whom I'm teaching.
I always have a feeling of contentment whenever I am able to attract their attention,
Especially when teaching literature, I love literature.
May God ease my way through,
To do this job with a sincere and humble heart.
InsyaAllah.
God knows best :).

fly

Run,
Fly,
Soar,
Just go.

shadows

Shadows in the sun,
Tiny steps we take.
Sometimes it's by the swaying trees,
Whilst at times,
It could be by the open doors.
We run around in circles,
To chase the shadows that follow our every steps.
But we'd never get there.
And as the sun goes down,
and darkness surrounds,
Shadows are gone.
And we lost our hope,
For good.

New Year ~ 2012 :)

Let's lift that weight off the shoulder,
Let if fly; startover.
Have a blessed new year,
May this year be better and less bitter.