2015

It was a tough year for me. I wouldn't lie. It was hard on me. There were times of a fall, a heartbreak or two. There were times that I'd been pushed, defeated, embarrassed, used, betrayed, crushed, hurt. I stumbled, I fell. I hit rock bottom. I learned to fall in love again just to fall out of it all over again. But I guess some things are just not meant to be. I know that every cloud has a silver lining and I believe that Allah has better plans for me. I learn to pick up the pieces, Alhamdulillah. Slowly, I'm rising once again. I learned the true meaning of friendship. People who are there through thick or thin. People who are meant to stay only for a while, and those who seem as if you'd known for a lifetime. I learned that some would choose to stay, while some would go and leave you behind. Appreciate the ones that are still there despite any weather. Thank you. The ones who go, I learn to let go, for you shall no longer carry a burden in the heart. Release and be free.

Despite tough days, there were also great ones. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for the blessings. For the wonderful family, beyond words could ever say. Alhamdulillah , I thank you Allah each day of my life for bringing them to me. And another addition to our family this year, Alhamdulillah :). May you always cherish our life in this world and the Hereafter.

2016, I wouldn't say much for now. Apart from, better days will come.
Have faith in Allah.
Amin :)

The Rainbow Breeze

Rainbows,
They do come,
But never did they say that they'd stay long.
When the rain goes,
Rainbows do come.
They shine,
To bright the skies,
Then they go.

As the breeze too,
A gush of cool,
It sends.
To give a warmth of a feel.
Calming a soul.
And when it has pass momentarily,
It goes.

Embrace the warmth,
The cool,
The shine,
As it passes by.
As it is only meant to be felt,
Momentarily.

Serenity

Learn to swim without a float,
Coz one day you'd have to let go of its support.

Learn to fly with your own wings,
As one day you'd have to let go of a grasp.

Learn to paint the skies a blue.
And learn that it'd never be a green.or yellow.or red.

Let the colors stay exactly where they are.
Don't sketch an unseen masterpiece.

Just breathe the air.
There is still an oxygen.
Two of 'em.
Indulge in its peace,
Serenity

Always have Allah in your heart, as He never fails you.

Have other people in your heart, and when they push you, you stumble, you fall.

Have faith in Allah only. He is enough for you.

future

I'd like to edit the past.
rewrite it,
into a better future.

ice

you will no longer see beneath the frozen waters,
the ice.
frozen cold.
you'd forget of the warmth that it were then.
but when the ice melts,
you'd see you the mirage of the view.
of the sweet serenity that it had brought.
to remind you of the warmth it had had,
before it had vanished.
but rather,
you'd let it freeze.
let the cold ice surface it.
and let it freeze for eternity.

still

so much of a time spent collecting sands,
by the beach.
but no matter how you try,
the sands still won't reduce.
it remains the same.

so much a time collecting the ocean waters in a pail.
with all your might you fill in each empty pail and waiting for it to be full.
but still,
as much as the pails may be filled,
the sea doesn't change a bit.

like collecting stars at night,
you reach,
but you won't gain.
no matter how far you spread your wings to fly.

so stand still.
and only feel the warmth of the breeze.
you need not move an each.
enjoy the cool wind that passes by.
breath if you need to,
smile if you want to.
let it only greet you by surprise.

beauty

even if the sun shines only for a short while,
it'd be enough
to see,
to feel
the soothing warmth
promising that good days do come.

and even if the rainbow appears only for a temporary moment,
it'd be sufficient
to send the message
to spread a light
of the serenity
that actually does exist

if you keep believing
and look at another side of the world

you'd see
you'd comprehend

that a beauty actually exists
a true warmth.

some people

some people,
they appear in your life,
just to remind you,
who you shall stay away from.

and some people,
they appear in your life,
just to remind you,
there are still nice people in this world.
sincere ones.

but when you're just about to slip,
don't fall just yet.
check the temperature.
the heat.
see if the coast is clear
and if the ground is smooth
before you resort to a fall.

because sometimes
it'd either soothe
or bounce you back

glanced

and when you glance at the stars,
do you give them the same look that you gave them from the other side of the world?

and when you dip your hands into the ocean's cool, is it the same touch as you felt on the seven seas?

and the suns, do they still shine the same way as how they shine on  the far end of the meadows?

are the shines as bright, the stars as shiny, the oceans as cool, as how they were then.

of today

wash it all away,
like the muds from the pebbles.

and be free.

like a ground,
it catches you when you fall.

like the basin,
that catches the raindrops from the sky.

and like the arms,
that hold you,
giving you a support,
when you're nearly slipping,
and just about to fall.

hold on to that.
though for tomorrow you may never know.

live today.
for what it is.
:)

swim.

swim,
sometimes you'd drown,
or hold on to a float.

other times you'd float,
with a butterfly stroke.

or in other instances,
you'd struggle hard to reach the surface.

just keep on swimming,
catch your breath.

swim.
even if you'd drown,
keep on persisting.

find ways to breathe,
perhaps a new air,
or two.

breath the ocean scent along the way.

exhale the tides that blocks your path.
or makes it hard. for you.
your swim,
your journey.

warmth

there's just so much love in this world, just find it :)

love.

come dusts and muds,
you keep on walking.
come slopes of hills,
you hold on tight.
come shadows and the breeze,
you take cover.
come rains and storms,
you sheild.

you never stop walking.
even if the world stops on you.
you,
keep the going.
never stop.

roses

roses are red.
but still, there are roses of various kinds
reds of various tones
and scents of many.

and sometimes it's not that certain bloom that attracts.
sometimes they don't.
and they hunt for another.

so it's either you indulge in your weary,
or you halt on the worry.
i'd choose the latter.

so roses are red.
violets could be blue.

and we'd hang on to the ones that stay,
and let go of the ones that fly.
and got lost in the wind and breeze.

breathe

the skies, they seem a little brighter,
the paths a little clearer, too.
the winds, they seem to blow a little cooler,
the birds, a little more melodious melody, too.
the scents, a little fresher,
the clouds, a little whiter,
the roads, a little less bumpier.

just for as long as you'd never look back,
that's just how smooth this journey would be.

breathe a more beautiful scent.
face the walk.
always keep your head held high.

for words shan't bring thou down.

suffice

Some leaves are blue,
But they appear green,
only to camouflage.
to portray a serenity that does not exist.

Some clouds are black.
But a white is what they portray
to create a vibe of purity
ones they don't even own.

And some flowers are yellow
but a red paint it wears
just to seal
what it really hides inside.

But when the rains, they fall
They wash away the vibrant colours
of painting
And a real-ness they appear as.

They could no longer hide
as the truth
they're out
though sealed.

But just see a green, if that's what they'd want to portray
or a white, if that's they want to show,
and rather a yellow,
if that's what they'd prefer.

There's not a need for a rhyme
or a word or two
as no words
is all that it needs.
to suffice.

Seal.

Like a pallete of dusty rain,
Raindrops that knock on the door,
Faithfully,
It slips through the window.
But no matter how the rain may fall,
The shield won't ever come off anymore.
The door will always be kept locked.
It will never be opened again.

Let go

Some days you wake up and realize,
That's not what you ever wanted,
Though a feel is still there.
For it's the feel of comfort, attachment, connection, like a magnet.
But release yourself.
Steer clear.
Be free.
Let go.
And realize,
It's not what you really wanted.
And keep on walking through

on this journey.
And maybe someday you'd breathe a different air.
To grasp into your heart.

Words

Some words are only said,
But not meant.
For they are said,
Only to soothe the ears,
Or to make it through the day.
Should that were to happen,
Let it slide,
Like the winds through the window.
Never make it break you,
Or hurt you.
Keep on breathing.
For the next thing you know,
Comes another day
And broken words will be kempt and leashed.
And not to be revisited again.
Ever

Wind

As the wind,
It keeps blowing,
Though the leaves still won't move,
It keeps blowing.

Sometimes, the leaves, they fall.
Or sometimes, they dry, they lose colour.
But never tired, always persistent, they keep blowing.

And sometimes a gentle breeze it is

Calming, soothing.

In other instances,
A raging wind it becomes,
Creating a storm, a thunder.
But when days are bright, soft it becomes.
As a wind,
It'll never stop
It'd keep on moving.

And if it were to shine,
Let it shine as bright.
as the sun.
And if it were to be deep,
Let it be as deep as the ocean.
Because nothing could compare to the sun's shine,
And the depths of the seas.
As how they'd offer
But,
They'd take back the shine
And they won't shine on thou no more.
So good luck.

Life lesson

There are two main great things that i learnt today:

1. Controlling anger makes you happier. Let it pass, be silent for a while, exhale it out of your system and forget it. In a few minutes later , you will be better. Act as if nothing happened. Rather than making a whole big deal out of it and then taking more time to shove it out , but then eventually turning out to be okay few hours later , or days later. So better take the earlier option :). Keep on trying. Don't let nitty gritty things take the best out of you.

2. Having patience (and really actually being patient, not only saying it). Indulge in its true meaning. Rather than rushing on things that may or may not happen, just let it pass. Anything is definitely possible. Even rains could stop, and storms could vanish and even skies go dark or bright sometimes. So never give up and keep on fighting your own battle.

Fade.

What good are the clouds,
If it could then turn black.

What good are the stars,
When in the morning,they'd be gone.

What good is the sun,
If in the night, it vanishes.

What good are the flowers,
When comes a day,they'd dry.

And what good is a love,
If even that could fade.

Of compare.

Don't compare your life to theirs.
Everyone faces a different challenge.
Some more difficult than others.
Some easier,
But harder later perhaps.
We don't all get all the same things at the same time.
Some move further.
Some wait a little longer.
But one thing for sure ~
Allah knows what is  best
And what could be handled by each and everyone one of us.
He wouldn't give us what we couldn't bear

Heart

When the tears have dried,
Wipe them away.

When the hands couldn't type no longer,
Then stop.

When the feet has become tired,
Give it a break.

When the heart has broken,
Mend.

For the sake of you.
Reevaluate yourself.
Find those missing pieces.

To connect your heart
To become whole again.

hello :)

i guess the reason i've been abandoning this blog is because i've been writing words in my Instagram instead. But I will still try to continue writing in here, a word or two :).