i failed again.
i tried my best.
but failed.

craps.

when i read other people's blogs, i guess my blog is less informative, or in other words, i just write crap.;p.im amazed at how some people could nicely write out their opinions, very useful.well, anyway. there is just approximately 2 weeks left before i go home. frankly speaking, i haven't really done any packing or anything.perhaps i guess im a bit emotionless at the moment.today my friend asked me how i was feeling to go back, but all i can is that i am emotionless.or maybe a bit of a mixed feeling.perhaps procrastinators only feel the pressure towards the very end.;p.most of my friends have neatly started to sort out their things.as for me, ive done nothing yet.maybe i should start tonight at least for a bit.time flies so fast, it just moves on so fast, leaving us behind.it just makes me wonder what have i been doing for all this while.whether it's worthwhile, or did it just come to waste.well perhaps what im sure of is that there are many things i've learned throughout my stay here, in many aspects.it could even be the very little things that we go through every single day which teaches us alot.we ask unanswerable questions, we wonder, we figure, but in the end only God knows the best.perhaps some answers are unable to be revealed.only He is the one who knows everything.

Random

Playlist of the day:

Warwick Avenue -Duffy
Broken Strings - James Morrison
This Love - The Veronicas
Pills - The Perishers
Cahaya - Kris Dayanti
Still Alright - Adam Merrin
Light Years Away - Mozella
Home - Dishwalla
This is the Last Time - Keane
My Heart - The Perishers
4 in the morning - Gwen Steffani

a new hope perhaps :)

everything happens for a reason,
i guess everything we go through actually teaches us 1 little part in life,
there r times when the sudden thoughts come to mind,
of what is it that we actually need and what is it that's worthwhile,
but why is it actually difficult to follow the needs and the wants,
n always just going against it,
sometimes we know what we want n what we should do,
but in the end of the day we forget,
then tomorrow comes and we remember again,
perhaps that's how life goes,
at times we forget, at times we remember,
but in the end we should know what is it that we want to hold on to,
they say it is not wrong to hope,
perhaps only time will tell.
;]

james morisson feat. nelly furtado

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u just need to open your eyes

when disordered emotions outweighs rationality

when your feet hit the ground,
u just realized wut u actually did,
sometimes u were flying high up in the air,
until everything u do was just calmly ok,
but when land on the stepping ground,
u realize that u could just be categorized as being stupid,
it's just because of the magical power which blurs the eye,
wishing u would have done something else,
and there's just nothing u can do now to make a difference,
sometimes realization comes in a few days or even weeks after,
perhaps it just shows how you should always be careful,
because you can never turn back time,
nor can you ever stop it.

appreciations

i should be doing my assignment, but this is what i did instead. it's very rare i post something like this. well today, i would just like to appreciate the people who had made an impact in my life.

I -u r like a gift from God to me. i dunno when we started being close. but wut i remember is that u made an impact in my life ever since. there are so many things that we could relate to with each other, being paranoia, crazy, etc. we may not hang out that often, but we know that we are always there for each other. it's just nice to have things to talk about and just having a sense of comfortableness.not creating an awkward silence. without u perhaps i could be a lost soul. this is a friendship i would rili want to cherish and dun want to lose. thank you for being u.love u.

A-with you, i could just talk about anything at all without being judged. being with you, there are always things to say, always feeling comfortable. u r always so cool with me even though i could be a pain in the ass. u could be honest at times, in a good way, which is very helpful to me. thanx for always being there especially in times i needed someone the most. u gave me support even when i do the stupidest things. each knock on the door always brings a smile to my face. fate brought us together, n im grateful for that. may God bless u.

A- they say miracle happens unpredictably. this person is someone i never knew i'll be close with. it just so happen by time and situation.perhaps being among the only soul survivors here last year made us hang out with each other more often. i found out that there are things we could relate to and i could just easily trust and get along with her.this is a person with a heart of gold.i know we dun hang out often with each other often recently, perhaps being busy with our own lives.but im always here if u need me k. thanx for every single thing. knowing u is one of the best things that has happened to me.love u ;)

J- this is someone ive known for ages. it's good to know someone faraway from u who'll always be close in ur heart. not being awkward with each other even though we rarely see each other. the friendship we own is something so special to me, n is something i would always love to cherish. im sorry i've not always been there for u.perhaps the distance made it hard. but u know i love u rite.n im always here for u if u need me.i know ur going thru alot, i hope everyting turns out to be the best for u because u deserve nothing but the best. looking forward to see u soon

N- we've been through alot. ups and downs. u made an impact in my life. no matter how good or how bad, u'll always be remembered as someone who'll always leave some footprints in my heart. u taught me alot of things, let alone giving me a chance to go through a lot experiences in my life. perhaps there are just some things that go beyond control, n there's just nothing we could do but just hope.if only it were just so simple, but it's just beyond that and sometimes it's just too hard. u know that i'll always love u no matter how things turn out to be. i just wish u all the happiness u could get, with or without me. thanx for opening my eyes to another part of the world.n i'll always pray all the goodness for u.

A- this is someone who is always there giving me a helping hand.always there if i need to clarify my doubts.she doesnt now how much she always brightens up my life.without her maybe ill feel lost at times.she's also the one who introduced me to this blog thingy. we dun hang out much often, but i know that i could feel comfortable around her.recently i find out that there are things we could relate to, like being paranoid together.but i guess im the one who's always the more paranoid one.hehe.i just want to say thank you for every single thing u've done.im just glad that u'r here.:)

E-this is someone ive known since form one.i guess the only friend im really close with since high school.she lives nearby home in ampang n im looking forward to see her soon.she's getting engaged soon, n im so happy for her.we meet each other very rarely, but i know there's just so much to say everytime we meet. we could just talk about anything at all.perhaps having a chemistry that's just rare to be found.thanx for being u. n i hope that this friendship will never end.i just love you.

perhaps this list of appreciation will never end.but i shall stop now.thanks to every other people who has made an impact in my life.love u all ;)

sooner or later

at times i do feel like i want to turn over a new leaf,
looking back at the things i've done,
thinking back wut i've said or did,
perhaps there should still be room for improvement,
taking this last moments doing things i should do,
n leaving out wut i shouldn't do,
it makes me wonder how i could always go through a series of twist and turns,
all at the same time,
it's sometimes funny how there could just be sudden or unplanned actions,
how things turn out not to be the way u want or like it to be,
perhaps in the end of the day all that's left is a sense of determination,
give a space for your own say,
if not often but at least just for this once,
it may not last but i don't know,
i just don't know..


nelly furtado - all good things come to an end

mozella - light years away

hearts

at times when the heart feels empty..
lacking the streak of light..
the calmness is rarely there..
perhaps that could answer the question why the mixed of emotions regularly occur..
possibly getting sad and disappointed easily..
fretting over things that are not worth the exhaustive thought...
being overly sensitive..
quarreling and creating conflicts too often..
perhaps also having a strength within that's just easy to be demolished..
no wonder why sometimes a heart can be in two totally different actions..
like black n white, right after one another..
sometimes when coming to resolve a problem that occurs..
it's always hoped that the weakness within won't easily obstruct the definite say... wut does it take to purify a heart..
perhaps being closer to Him could create the calmness..
as He is the one who owns our hearts..