that faint melody.

the mile i walked,
it stopped for a while.
the air i breathed,
suffocated for a second.
the smile i painted,
went lost for a moment.
the beautiful scent,
dried out.
the song i sang,
vanished into thin air.
the beautiful melody
could no longer be heard.
so we step this ground once again,
standing tall,
wiping off them remnants.
and we fly.

the speed

fast,
faster than the lightning,
the speed of light.
Not just like the gushing of the waves,
or as the falling raindrops.
Not even as how you slide down the slopes,
definitely not like how the autumn leaves fall from the tree.
just a little faster,
and a little too fast.
thus we step on the brake,
slow it down a little,
make a u-turn,
and head on back to the start.
back to a new beginning.
to a new journey.
an adventurous one :)

a word or two from the procrastinator.

I realize that my writings in this blog are getting a tad bit longer by the days, not just restricted into little shorter poems. Though of course, poems would always be my main priority. Probably there just seems to be days when I just feel like writing longer, here in my blog. Perhaps that way, I would tend to sound more expressive and plus, with the hopes that it would also improve my writing skills. I wouldn't deny the fact that when I write poems, I tend to be very vague as I don't really describe in full details of what I am talking about. So any characters, situations or issue would be vaguely covered by those so-called words. I express them in a way that would make it general and less obvious. Though I know that not many people are reading my blog, but I just write for my own luxury, comfort and satisfaction. I write normally during my leisure times or simply just when I feel like it.

Speaking of writing, Gosh..I really don't know what is wrong with me. Right now, I'm really trying my best to do my assignment. But I'm really struggling on starting. It is sort of a so-called supposed to be a secret that I guess none of my coursemate friends know (I know that they don't read this blog as well). This is because I am just embarrassed at the fact that I haven't really started typing it (some of my coursemates are actually nearly done!). I seriously find it hard to force myself to do it during earlier days, like when it is still very early (which is actually a good time to start, an excellent time, actually.) Seriously, I've always have this sort of problem since forever. It's sort of like this so-called writer's block that they refer to. Not to say that I am a really great, boombastic writer, but I guess yeah, in the end of the day, I work the best under pressure (I think). I've been opening my laptop since a few hours earlier today. I end up doing this and that, and well, here is where I end up typing. Urghh. It's really not good to be a procrastinator I tell. Not that I do not try, I really try to (hadap) this laptop and articles all day, but...I just can't..:(..I feel that there is a big lump on my heart, not a calm, that hinders me from starting to do my assignment.

Sighh...I really hope that I will really start it as soon as possible and do it well. Semoga Allah membuka pintu hatiku..Amin..

Ok, I wish to write more, but I really got to go now since there will be a class to attend soon. Need to get ready with some stuffs.

Alright, will continue later. Goodbye. Thanks for reading :).

anew

and behind these walls
that start to fall.
they tumble down
and land on the ground.
of all the chains,
they start to open.
hardened coats,
they soften.
and the dark,
has found the light.
of acceptance and realization.
of letting go and moving forward.
of starting anew,
a ground to lay.
and a path to venture;
a pair of wings to fly
with your heads held high,
and a smile to always accompany you.
in a journey,
to begin.

Britney Spears, baby!

I'm not pretty sure how i came across this video (or in other words, I think I'd rather not say how :p). But, I'd have to admit to that I grew up with her songs. While watching this video, I remember how I'd know most of her songs word by word, like most of the ones in the this video, especially the ones towards the beginning (brings back memory, really). Again, I would like to admit that I was pretty much a big fan (haha, well who wasn't?at that time) I remember being in standard 6 till Form 5, and probably some of my IPBA and MacQ days, when I was really into her songs. My favourite would be Sometimes (I'm gonna listen to that one after this!haha:p) and a couple more like From the Bottom of My Broken Heart, Don't Let Me Be The Last to Know, Someday and Everytime (haha, yeah, I was already sentimental as a teenager.. :p). But yeah, and then things change, time passes and we forget about some great music that we used to like.haha. So, if you ever were a fan of Britney (at some point of your life) , well, enjoy this video! If you are, I am pretty sure that this video will make you reminisce. ;D She sure is amazing!!


 yup, this down here was definitely my favourite Britney song - "Sometimes"..haha ;D

p.s. sorry for being lame in this post :p

change.

If we keep on holding on to the past, we would never move forward.
But, if we take a look back and learn from the mistakes that we have made, insyaAllah it could help us become a better person.

I am a person who likes to reflect. Today, I am reminded of the wrongs that I have done, the part of me that I do not like. After a while, I finally understand it all. It all makes clear sense now. Some of times we are too young and stupid, thus letting the worse get best of us. It could definitely break you.

Too much thoughts sometimes result in not a single thoughtful thought at all. Sometimes we tend to do things that are just beyond of what we are supposed to do. We take the wrong step and we understand differently; saying the wrong things or doing the wrong actions.Thus creating a damage, either for them or for yourself.

As for that, starting from today onwards, I want to change to the better. I want to learn from all the mistakes that I have ever done. I know that I am not a perfect person. There are things that I wish I did not do or say. I sincerely apologize to anyone who has ever been involved in any way. I really want to mind the things that I do or say, which may hurt the people that I love the most if being said or done the wrong way.

I want to close those damaged doors.
And open a new one, with an open heart,
and mind.

Everyday I am learning from each thing that has happened. And this time I really mean it with all my heart.

InsyaAllah.
may You guide my way through..

the meaning.

what is there to life,
when it's all done,
and when the busy days have gone.
of what meaning does it brings,
when it has all been accomplished.
and,
are you happy
watching the days go by.
in every sound of the raindrop by the window,
or in the drop of the sun's ray each day.
and when it's all done
what meaning does it bring
does it make you whole
filling in the loops and holes,
and wiping off the tears that may fall.
or are just still
looking for the path to stroll on,
to dance, to run, to laugh on,
to love.