Deep down there..

Look deep down wut culd u see..
Do u just feel the drizzling rain..
Silently flowing..
The pain, the footprints that may be left behind..
U know that down there it's just so deep..
The red that's still ripening,
Never yet lost or gone away,
It's always been there and always will..
But when you look beyond that,
U witness a sacrifice..
But perhaps rather vague in ur concreteness,
Perhaps your heart's voice is rather soundless,
Either you feel that u'r searching 4 a light,
Or losing some as well..

crazy

define the word above.
perhaps no single sentence culd actually define it.
be it first then u'll know wut it means.
n only then u'll know wut it's like to be it.
wut makes u be like it.
n why r u like it.
wut effect it brings to you.
there are no concrete answers.
but wut's for certain is d fact dat.
u'r just one of 'em.

caring

caring is good,
but perhaps too much care is not as good,
it may lead to a road of frustration,
sometimes a care may b too much,
also the concern that's as much,
u tink so much of the consequences,
n how ur actions may affect them,
but do they even spare a thought as much for u,
do they even hav a care for u..

lost

you were driving a car,
n then u realize that u got lost in the middle of a road,
hadn't reach the end yet,
u get into a lane dat's a bit dark,
u do not know wut to do,
u dunno which path to take,
u just stay lost,
looking for the journey to the end of the road,
but u dunno which path will lead u to the right direction,
u dunno how to react,
n just stay in the lost lane,
but u dun feel anyting bout it,
perhaps u may b numb,
but still figuring out wut to do next..

james morisson..

Leave Out the Rest - Linkin Park

linkin park's not rili one of my favourites, but dis one's a good song :)

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]

craps

have disappeared from this blogging ting for a week.perhaps nuting relevant seem to flow smoothly from my mind and to be converted into writing.but i guess i culdnt keep d silence in this blog writing for too long.may sound a bit pyschotic but sumtimes dis blog is considered to be rather one of my best fren.i can just write bout anyting to it without being judged.n it's always been there during my up n down moments, just to listen to my nonsense.myb it's one of my soothing therapy.
updates?perhaps a few events has rather occured as well as also having a few tings wandering in my mind for d past few days.well i guess dat's about it.d update for today.haha.perhaps dat's smtimes d way i am.smtimes preferring to let tings to be unexpressed in depth or also perhaps having my own way of expressing tings.
okla, there wasnt much of a purpose in this entry.
ill continue d nonsense in the next entry.
for now i feel like going to sleep in a hope of waking up to a brighter brand new day.
goodnite.

sparkles n shines

sparkles everywhere,
but r we wise enough to choose,
which ones r shining for real,
n which ones r only on the surface,
sumtimes we dunno that we culd be deceived,
or sumtimes we do know,
perhaps we culd b blinded at times,
we do try to search for the true sunshine,
but somehow were not able to get the concrete answers,
God please guide my way through,
let me witness the true colours,
and the facts that are precise,
dun let me b lost in a stream of deceptions..

juz felt like doing dis

What is your best friends name?

~: names shuldnt be mentioned.huhu

What are you listening to right now?

~: Linkin Park - Leave out all the rest

Whats your favorite number?

~: 6, 8

What was the last thing you ate?

~: some biscuits

If you were a crayon what color would you be?

~: dark purple

How is the weather right now?

~: cool

Who was the last person you talked

2 on the phone?

~: aimi

Siblings?

~: 4

Height?

~: 164 cm

Hair color?

~: black

Eye Color?

~: dark brown

Do you wear contacts?

~: yup

Month?

~: august.

Have you ever cried for no reason?

~: yeah.haha

What was the last movie you watched?

~: batman begin on tv

Favorite Day of the Year?

~: 26 aug ;p

Are you too shy to ask someone out?

~: sumtimes

Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?

~: definitely no, not d gymnasts type ;p

Chocolate or Vanilla?

~: vanilla

What books are you reading?

~: omg, long since i was engaged in a novel, kinda losing dat interest by time.hopefully it develops again soon.huhu

Piercings?

~: only at my ears

What were u doing before this?

~: talking on the phone

Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?

~: butter

Dogs or cats?

~: none

Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
~: yup.one person.who happens to also b my best fren now :)

Do you like to travel by plane?

~: yup

Right-handed or Left-handed?

~: right handed

How many pillows do you sleep with?

~: minimum 2.huhu

Do you have a Tattoo?

~: nope

always in balance

u gain some,
u lose some,
that's how life goes,
not everyting turns out the way that u want it to,
u dun get everyting u want in life,
perhaps sometimes the scale is in balance,
when only u were starting to b happy,
there is another reason for sadness,
u chose a path,
u walk on it,
sometimes in turn off some lights,
or perhaps culd also lesson the colours that were always portrayed,
maybe that's just the game of life,
u gain some,
u lose some.

For once

Im writing this in d midst of being 'for once'..
For once i've stopped tinking for a while,
For once i've let my mind n heart rest from having unnecessary aching, ;p
For once i've learn to be calm n more relaxed perhaps,
For once i've just not make tings major and live happily with my own life,
n also for once, i've learn to let tings be. and perhaps with just a pinch of support and care hidden on the inside.
Maybe because im just tired and not willing to let the neurons in my brain to be affected more.
Huhu.
But also maybe with the belief that veils wont reside forever even if there is one.

The End :)

Nelly Furtado - All Good Things

...they come to an end

What lies beyond

They say lessons help us grow,
It's undeniably true,
It helps us learn things which sumtimes we tink we already know,
But perhaps just starting to learn,
Sometimes it's just d small tings which we tink dun matter much,
But we only feel its big impact when it occurs,
Life itself is a test,
Everyting dun just happen for no purpose,
But rather for a reason,
It may test the honesty and sincerity that lies within,
And also the built-in strength that may or may not easily be demolished,
It all runs back to the concrete or feeble measure which is hold on to,
Perhaps the answer just lies in the heart,
Sometimes hard to be expressed or portrayed,
Maybe the saying is different but the meaning is perceived differently,
Sincerity and care may be invisible yet still there..

Leona Lewis - Better in Time

my only one

i guess i just realize dat i miss my little brother so much..not actually dat little, he's 18 dis year..he's d only brother i hav..i guess wif him i culd b d most comfortable...just do wutever i want, fooling around, he wuldnt even bother that much..well at least dat's wut i tink..haha..;p..i also always see him as d lil kid, even if he's very much grown up..maybe coz i feel dat he's just a kid in him, based on his actions, even though his age increased..;p..as far as i can remember, we did many tings together..it just feels good to sumtimes go out and eat wif him or watch a movie together...he doesnt like to burden me, even though smtimes he unintentionally does..haha ;p..kidding..sumtimes we do keep secrets together, but rather smtimes he tells me stuffs compared to me..;p..we do quarrel at times, just like other siblings, and there are also times when we are sick of each other..but in the end of the day it just gets back to normal, being as crazy as we r..sumtimes i feel dat i culd just do anyting for him, but i guess dat's just thoughts..but nevertheless, i just love him so much and will just want to make him happy..n i hope he'll succeed in his new place

not that i dun miss my other family members, but perhaps my brother just suddenly crossed my mind at this particular moment...i love my family...each one of them will always have a special place in my heart :)

just out of interest . haha ;p

DESCRIPTIONS:

INFP - The "Dreamer"
Jung/Myers/Briggs Personality Types (Free Test)

INFPs are introspective, private, creative and highly idealistic individuals that have a constant desire to be on a meaningful path. They are driven by their values and seek peace. Empathetic and compassionate, they want to help others and humanity as a whole. INFPs are imaginitive, artistic and often have a talent for language and writing. They can also be described as easygoing, selfless, guarded, adaptable, patient and loyal.

"INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life."
- Portrait of an INFP (The Personality Page)

"creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, can be overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings..."
- INFP Jung Type Descriptions (similarminds.com)

Verbal/Linguistic:
People with Linguistic intelligence are naturally good with writing or speaking and memorization.

Musical:
People with musical intelligence are musically gifted and have a "good ear" for rhythm and composition.

Intrapersonal:
People with intrapersonal intelligence are adept at looking inward.

The Rope

Like pulling a long rope,
Which perhaps connects two or more continents,
Terribly long and the end is out of view,
Sometimes you feel like letting go of the grip,
But somehow you feel dat u've pulled too much and gone too far,
Seemingly perhaps the rope strangely contain magnetic forces,
Which makes u hard to decide,
Sometimes you know wut u should do,
But wut u dunno is how u shuld do it,
Sometimes u feel it comes n go,
Like pulling in a moment,
And suddenly comes the sudden pause which stops all the forces and all that matters,
You then have a realization that nothing else is important anymore,
But perhaps it's a perplexed mixture,
A vague concreteness,
Or rather tangled in the in the coarse of the rope..

thickening and darkening

when u scratch deep down u find something there,
a rather gold or sparkling diamond..
u somehow realize the sense of awareness,
however u just let the coating get thicker,
u know it's getting darker,
n perhaps flipping the wrong side up,
and strangely feeling ok,
but somehow not right..
u know u shuld stop,
but dunno where to start..

over n over

over-reactions, over-tinking, over-saikoness, over-emotions,
results a loss, a loss of all the precious and valuables..
the twist and turns which ends in a twirl,
not appreciating as much when it's there,
perhaps just taking for granted..
and the next ting u know it's all gone..
emptiness remains,
all because of our own self, all in our own shoulders..
just hoping dat it won't happen again..
perhaps a lesson to tink bout..

ditag oleh siti amnah :D

nm2 timangan oleh org tersyg

- Lisa, Noli, Gile, Lis, Li

anda seorng yg

- insane

insan teristimewa.desribe ape yg mmbtkn die terlalu istimewa di mata anda

- my dad ( tiru amna) ;p - done lots of things for me, budi yg xterbalas

makanan fav anda

- kueytiau (any way of cooking), mi rebus yg mak saye wut, ikan keli, mcD, etc

fav song

- songs from lifehouse, maroon 5
fav colour
- dark purple, dark blue, dark brown, maroon

sikap yg mmbtkn anda stress

-penipuan, penyembunyian, pemakanan yg berlebihan ;p

5 bnde yg msti ade dlm handbag

- purse, hp, lipbalm, compact powder, umbrella, mp3

kali terakhir anda menangis beria2

- last week kot

tag 5 rkn anda

xpela, kali ni saye x tag sape2 :D

a story about the butterfly net

like holding a net all around, waiting to catch a butterfly along the way,
it just get frustrating if the catch does not meet a success in the end..
or perhaps having an outcome that's rather tiring and full of uncertainty..
sometimes u just wonder y u just keep on holding the net, n y make it affect ur entire life..
n somehow u just know that it's out of hand and out of control..
then y not just let go of the net for a while, and sitting still..
and just ignoring the butterflies, letting them do just wutever,
and perhaps some day the butterflies will come scattering around,
full of colour, full of joy,
coming unexpectedly and uninvited,
which perhaps culd b a bit better..
and even if the butterflies get out of reach,
then it's just nothing that u culd do,
as it's just a story of u , the net and the butterflies..